BILA SEPET DAN MERAK BERGABUNG TENAGA

jyeaahh

2011-01-22T13:07:00.000-08:00

im bored.formspring me.I`ll entertain ur quetions!HAHA

www.formspring.me/nazirahjalil

dont look back in anger

2011-01-22T08:49:00.000-08:00

What do u guys still want from me?sometimes I wonder would my life change if I did not meet any of u.It was really a mistake knowing them.Do u find it funny to still make fun of me.come on.Get over me.Grow up.Im tired and sick to tolerate with you guys.Yes im a stalker.But I did not stalk if no one told me.I heard, there i read it,still making fun of me.Its been a year.And I dont even care about anyone of u anymore.I wish I could turn back time and fix all my mistakes.Sigh.But they say dont look back in anger..Past is a past move on and live life blissfully.And to you ex boyfriendS,have fun spreading stories,hope u live happily ever after.Amin.If people ask me what would me my biggest regret this would be one of it,to meet people like them.And i believe this happens for a reason.

On the other hand I am really happy and content with my life now.I have a beautiful family to start with,friends who I can rely on whom i call TRUE FRIENDS,a boyfriend who is really mature enough to understand and bare with all of my nonesense who love me endlessly.

Updates,currently im pursuing my Acca studies,hopefully this my last paper.I want to work by next semester.

Mr boyfriend been really busy lately.Finger crossed that i will succeed in occupying myself throughout this six months period.

My 2011 aim--->I will update my blog regularly!InsyaAllah.

“Of every ten persons who talk about you, nine will say something bad, and the tenth will say something good in a bad way.”

Let's have a stereotype sleepover, baby!

2010-11-13T03:30:00.000-08:00

"Orang lain kalau sleepover mesti ada pedicure, manicure, makeup2. Tapi kita.........."

Hahaha. Let's have one!
Miss you Sepetttttttttt

Merak

exam

2010-11-10T07:56:00.000-08:00

Exam is less than a month now.I m still struggling to finish up all the chapters of each subject and doing past years.Im stress like really stress but im lazy.I really want to pass all the three papers,please pray for me.

College is like my first home now since i spend more hours in college than home *hopefully this spirit stays until i finish off my exam*...Okay tipu,baru start today je actually.However I got another paper left for next semester before I completed my AccA provided that I pass all the 3 papers im taking now.

Im still clueless on what to do after I finish my studies.I dont want to be an auditor.I dont want to work in the BIG 5.It`s a boring job.I just dont think that this profession suits me.Im shy,how the hell am I suppose to meet clients???!!I dont know why I take ACCA.Oh ya,because of my dad.Haha,how can i forget.LOL.However babah I promise u,I`ll make u proud one day by completing this course.Im getting there,im getting there.

I love tax.I enjoy doing tax subject.I want to be in the tax department,but they say `tax sucks`,and the people there are all the ones with big tummy,big glasses,nerdy..ughhh..Baru ingat nak jadi cool sekejap dengan future collegue.LOL.AHAHHAAHAHA.But if u asked me I rather go for tax than audit.So its official,tax it is.

I dont know why I blog about this,u people dont even care pun,HAHA,but its my blog not yours.BLERGH!!!IM STRESS BUT IM FUCKING LAZY,KILL ME!

my birthday falls on october 11!!

2010-10-22T13:17:00.000-07:00

Hello people its me again.Its 4.17 in the morning and im still not sleepy...I think because I had too much sleep just now.Anyways I`m here to blog about my birthday which falls on october 11th.Im 21 people,can you smell freedom?

This year`s celebration is simple yet oh so AWESOME!!!I celebrated my birthday 2 days earlier with mr.bf as he`ll be working on my birthday , as it falls on monday.I told him that I didnt want to plan anything since it was my special day,just bring me wherever he feels like.The initial plan was to bring me to Kampung Sungai Penchala,but traffic was bad.So he decided to bring me to hard rock cafe in Kuala Lumpur,but hell it was full.My mood was a bit off cause I was so hungry.At last we had dinner at The Ship near Pavillion.The food was good.On the way back we passed by another The Ship in Bukit Bintang ,then only he realised that he brought me to the wrong The Ship restaurant.(Haha,its okay sayang).

The next day,his family took me out for a small birthday dinner.We had dinner in Italiannese, Empire, Subang Jaya.I was so touched,yes i was =,) We ordered few varieties of food and share them all together as you know Italiannies serves huge portions!
Thank you thank you=D

So here comes the day!My birthday!I had class on my birthday,sucks i know right!Earlier that day I bumped into Rashaad and Chris, they wished me,but then I couldnt sense something fishy was going on.10 minutes before my class ended,Rashaad texted me and told me that we were gonna have lunch in medan but he asked me to wait in the cafe first.So me and Aleesa waited in the cafe till Rashaad and my other friend,Zen, came.Zen told me she wanted to borrow my books to photostate,I gave her my weird face,and was thinking to myself how can she not have her own textbook ??????We all went near the photostate shop but she was taking her own sweet time analysing the book.Suddenly,Chris and the whole group came with a birthday cake,omg!Guys,thank you so much (ada lagi yg masih sayang,haha)

Later that evening,Merak picked me up from college as we were gonna have dinner together to celebrate my birthday,just the two of us.Earlier that day I couldnt stop whinning and complaining to her how sucks my birthday gonna be,my bf`s working,my friends were all busy,my family told me that they only gonna celebrate my birthday on weekend.So I asked merak to accompany me to go shopping and buy dress for the dinner that we`re gonna have later.HAHA.(pathetic)...Being a good friend,she came all the way from Ampang and teman me for dress hunting.We changed in the car as we were already late for the dinner as Merak already made
a reservation at 8 at Fullhouse,Sunway Pyramid.When we walked in,came to my surpise my siblings and Ieqa were there waiting for me,auwhhhhhhhhhhhhhh,and again another surpriseeeeeeee!!!Thank you Merak for organising the surprise!!.Triple auwwhhh....Iloveyouguys=D.

My aunty promised me that she gonna take my sister(her birthday falls a day after mine) and i for a birthday dinner once she`s back in malaysia which was on friday last week.Thought we were gonna have dinner with her we went to her place and get ready there.When we were about to leave the house,she asked us to go first and she wanted to go with separate cars.Mr.bf picked me up,my sister went with the boyfriend and we headed to borneo in Sunway.When we arrived there,I saw Aleesa,Kimi,Yogesh,Asha,Yana and Azza,I macam terkejut and was sad at the same time sebab I thought they went dinner without telling us,but oh boy,i was wrong,they were there to celebrate Our birthday!!Another surpise!!They were so good in organising the surprise to the extend that my sister and i were so clueless about it!!Good job guys.Thank you so much from the bottom of my heart for the surprise,I love you guys like a lot!!!!We went for karaoke session after dinner..It was fun and awesome okay!!
I wanna thank archap,mr.bf,yogesh,kimi yana,asha,azza,aleesa and pai for all the effort,group hug please=D Sayang korang!

Im lucky and I blessed to be surrounded by wonderful and awesome people like you guys <3,I can never thank you Allah=)

Ma,I wish you were still here to celebrate my birthday with me.I just wish u were here to see me grow up more,but im glad that i got to at least spend 18 birthday celebration with you,I Love you,and I miss you.I know you are doing good up there.My prayers are always with you.Al Fatihah=)

yours truly,
sepet

Here we go again!

2010-10-21T08:41:00.001-07:00

Hello guys!its been awhile since i last blog..We both were pretty busy..Now its already october and I think my last post was in March.I`ve done with my finals in June.Result were pretty bad.HAHA(just to make myself feels good).Im sad really!Could have done better.Right after my finals my sister and I,yes only two of us went to The US for almost a month.Yes I had FUN!!The trip was awesome.I`ll post pictures at the end of this post.We went to visit my other sister who lives there,as she had to follow her husband.Her husband is assigned to one of The Us company,for a year,but now they are BACK!!=DD!!

First destination when we were in States was Los Angeles.I love this place especially the weather!!It was summer but it was pretty cold.We went madame tussuad(okay i dont know how the hell we spell it)..Seriously the wax figure macam real gilerrrr I cakap you!!Next stop when we were in LA was UNIVERSAL STUDIO!My favourite among all the places we visited.Omg its like a dream come true(jakun okayyyy!).After we`ve done with universal studio we went San Diego,my sister`s place.We stopped by chinese muslim restaurant for dinner,it was damn delicious.The portion for satu orang macam untuk 4 orang,a bit expensive la but worth every penny spent!

In San Diego,nothing much we did,other than shopping.Outlets bersepah sepah that we all went crazy over the stuffs there.And it is cheap compared to here,all the branded stuff.I love my sister`s place cause jacuzzi is just few steps away from her room.Kira bangun bangun je i tukar bathing suit terus jacuzzi..ahh heaven.We cant do it here in malaysia,malaysia kan summer all year long,tak terbakar pulak kulit kalau jacuzzi tengah tengah siang.We visited the beach..Omg sumpah lawa giler,breathtaking view,cantik sangat-sangat!

Next stop,Vegas baby!!The city that never sleeps.Sangat happening vegas ni BUT i just hate the weather,scorching Hot!And when i say hot believe me,its nothing like malaysia punya panas..The first day we arrived day,ala ala matsalleh tak sedar diri kitaorang jalan tengah-tengah panas,and I was like covering my face the whole time!The next day,taubat,lepak hotel je,jalan-jalan dalam hotel,tengok casino,main rides,tengok aweks aweks(macam remps tak?)..hehe..

We went Disneyland.Okay before that nak brag,I NAIK ROLLERCOASTER yang damn tinggi and scary gila!!!!AHAHAHA..Yes,i was forced to actually.But heck,I did it okay.Disneyland was okay and fun.It was tiring,we were there from morning till late night kot!The next day we went seaworld pulak.Ada shamu shamu(dolphins).Cute gila..And tengok other animals jugak macam whales,sea lion(tak comel,serious tak tipu tapi pandai sangat)

Here come some of the pictures,jap eh i upload,

For more pictures go to my facebook okay people=)

BTW u guys know what,Shameen is already 8 month old on 20.10.2010 =D She`s a big girl now.. Nak tengok dia tak??

(Helllo peopleeeeeeeee,my name is Shameen)

And here comes the boyfriend,my other half ..Im happy and content with my life now.

Baby,you are like a dream come true,I love you,SO MUCH!!We both can do this,pinky promise=)

And Merak says hi!!!

yours truly,
sepet!

Dear Blogger,

2010-04-25T13:18:00.000-07:00

Thanks for hearing me out

for a year and 4 months.

Thanks for letting me vent out all my anger

and never complains.

Thanks for accepting all my grammar mistakes

and monotonous writings,

Thanks for letting me share stories people dont wanna know

or care.

But every good thing must come to an end at one point.

Goodbye :')

Aeti Amira/Merak

my new blog, haha. here

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

2010-04-21T03:31:00.000-07:00

AHHHHHH MY DIPLOMA YEARS FINALLY COME TO AN END!

Like, finally!

Class dah habis woooohooooooooo, now its all down to my finals this 5th and 6th, then after that...... Freedom!
(I dont know why but the song Freedom in Arrested Development popped in my head right now, along with Tobias and those gays ha! refer: Arrested Development 1st seaseon, 1st episode, i think)

Yesterday I had my final assessment for typography, where we had to do 3 type specimen from 3 periods,. So heres my designs:

1st Period:Movable Type

2nd Period:International Typographic Style
Looking at it now I think I went OTT with the pink T_T

3rd Period:Digital

Mr Edward seems pleased but the other lecturer , I dont know and I dont want to know, pretty please. She complaint about the color scheme, the readability and whatnots. My face changed, terus cuak, like this is my final project and I might get low marks for it, Im soo dead. Then Mr Edward saw my face and said, "But all in all, it's very good". Lega sikit. Tapi ntahlah, I hope it's okay enough to get me a good grade.

But still, yay for my last class!

Oh last week I went to KLCC with my bf and his cute little brother Is. We watched KL Drift(hikhik) and then we decided to go to Petrosains as it's still early. It's been AGES since I last went there, I think past 2 years kot, with Arif. I really had fun, not much changes tho but they have this new addition, Racing section. It's all about cars, F1, racing mechanics and such. Hence the name. It was sooo cool! I wish I didnt leave my camera at home(...phone battery low masa 1st section dah). So we managed to take only a few photos.

This is not the racing section.

I had mine taken oso but I dont look half as cute
T_T

See see seeeee? This is why I hate taking pics, I look like an ogreeeeee.
Fatty bom bom.

Is was so cute, we played this racing game with another visitor who was on a school trip. To win the game you have to win all 5 laps. And Is won all 5 of them, he got off and kissed his steering wheel! Eceyyyyyyyy bukan main.

And then he won again and ckp kuat kuat, "Tak adil la mcm ni!"
Puzzled, I asked him "Asal tak adil, kan dah menang?"
And he went "Ye la asyik Is je menang"

-_-"
cessssssssssssssssss ini budakkk

I LMAO and so did the other boy.

It was fun, and I think we spent hours in there. Time well spent :)

Haih, now I miss Aqyl.

Merak

2010-04-18T19:15:00.000-07:00

I'm sitting here in the boring room
It's just another rainy Sunday afternoon
I'm wasting my time
I got nothing to do
I'm hanging around
I'm waiting for you
But nothing ever happens and I wonder

I'm driving around in my car
I'm driving too fast
I'm driving too far
I'd like to change my point of view
I feel so lonely
I'm waiting for you
But nothing ever happens and I wonder

I wonder how
I wonder why
Yesterday you told me 'bout the blue blue sky
And all that I can see is just a yellow lemon-tree
I'm turning my head up and down
I'm turning turning turning turning turning around
And all that I can see is just another lemon-tree

I'm sitting here
I miss the power
I'd like to go out taking a shower
But there's a heavy cloud inside my head
I feel so tired
Put myself into bed
Well, nothing ever happens and I wonder

Isolation is not good for me
Isolation I don't want to sit on the lemon-tree

I'm steppin' around in the desert of joy
Baby anyhow I'll get another toy
And everything will happen and you wonder

I wonder how
I wonder why
Yesterday you told me 'bout the blue blue sky
And all that I can see is just another lemon-tree
I'm turning my head up and down
I'm turning turning turning turning turning around
And all that I can see is just a yellow lemon-tree
And I wonder, wonder

I wonder how
I wonder why
Yesterday you told me 'bout the blue blue sky
And all that I can see, and all that I can see, and all that I can see
Is just a yellow lemon-tree

M

High and dry.

2010-04-13T22:19:00.000-07:00

I've been staring at the keyboard for minutes, and I still cant find the right words to convey how I feel right now.

I'm so stressed out. It's been days and this exhausts my mind, body and soul. When I sleep I wish I dont have to wake up. Cuz reality bit me hard, and it's much more easier dreaming. A coward, you may call me. But try stepping in my shoes.

I was reading a friend's blog and her entry smacks right on my face. Its as if it was written to me(the being emotional part). I know its not but still, thanks for writing such a beautiful entry.

Yes, I admit I'm an emotional person, a problematic child. Very emotional, very fragile, if I may add. At times, it gets out of control, I get hurt and I hurt people. I dont know how to curb this feeling, I just succumb to it and this, makes me hate myself. To make things worse, my mind is plagued with all kinds of negative thinking. I feel like everyone is turning their backs on me. No one cares about me. I'm all alone. You get the idea.

But hey, did it ever occur to you that I am a human being with feelings, too?

No, I dont need people to sympathize, I just need someone who understands or in the same boat to hear me out. Cuz to just hold this in, I'm afraid sooner or later, I'd blow up. Or even worse, go crazy. Neither do I write this to get sympathy. But I'm just so freaking tired of acting, pretending like everything is okay, like i'm this little miss sunshine, everything is rainbows and butterflies, and all is well when it's not.

I have friends, yes. But I'm positive some of them will just laugh reading this thinking I'm being a drama queen. They just dont know the gravity of my situation is. They just dont understand how I feel, and what I've been through that makes me feel what I feel.

At times like this, I wish I had a sister. Someone who listens.

God, this is killing me.

I feel like running away, away from everything.

MENYESAL AKU MENYESAL.SUMPAH.

2010-04-07T04:30:00.000-07:00

Sumpah aku menyesal tak dengar cakap mama ku dahulu.Pesan nya aku buat endah tak endah.Menyesal tak sudah.Orang kata nasi dah jadi bubur.

Perut sudah semakin besar.Sudah semakin ketara.Aku malu.Bagaimana aku hendak sorokkan perut yang sedang membesar ini.Aku malu.Nak pakai baju pun fikir 2 3 kali takut orang nampak perut yang membesar ini.3 bulan mereka kata.Aku diam membisu tanpa kata sambil tersengih.

Itu lah hidup aku.Kenapa kah aku tidak mengamalkan hidup yang sihat dari dulu.Kenapa?Kenapa aku perlu mengamalkan hidup yang menyusah kan aku dan menyusahkan mata orang yang memandang.

Itu lah menyesal.Mama pernah cakap `Kalau makan jangan berselang seli kan dengan air`.
Tengok apa dah jadi!Perut ku BUNCIT!Sape nak nolong ni ha?Tummy trim atau London slim management ambil lah aku jadi customer mu.Perut ku da tak dapek nak tolong dah ni ha.Macam org mengandung 3 bulan....Ah tidakkkkkK!

sepet!

That's a wrap!

2010-04-05T12:43:00.000-07:00

It's over!

All our effort, sweats, sleepless nights, had finally paid off.

I'm talking about my class' final project, Malaysian-LAH campaign which was held last Saturday. It's tiring, but fun at the same time. And it's so satisfying your body get numb and you cant even feel the tiredness. Okay, over pulak. Ha!

Here's a few pics taken from the event:

Kantoi sangatlah kan event tak start but kitorang sibuk2 shopping. LOL.

Opening act: The awesomepossum percussionist!

Followed by cheerleaders with micro-minis.
(Male audience's favorite, definitely)

Then, An Honest Mistake took the stage!

The crowd

Us! with our forum speakers; Andrew Netto, Jojo Struys, Sharifah Amani, Pete Teo and Mr Irwan.
(damn our faces damn semangated wey)

They're super duper pretty and nice too.
(I cannot upload my pics with them, I looked like an ogre T_T)

Joe Flizzow getting jiggy(Ms Eena's phrase) with Nadia. Ha!

A quarter of Media Team; Dorothy, JC, Casey and moi

With Casey

Ms Eena and our group leader Nick

(credit: Casey Yew and QLP Photography)

We're so proud as this is our baby, our first ever event, organized by bunch of inexperienced students and it turned out well. What a way to finish my diploma :)

Now, its time to put our game(as in study) face on!

Damn. Hate em books (read: study/non fictional books)

Merak

p/s: Who googled my bf's and my FULL NAME? Serammmmmmmmm

Bittersweet

2010-04-02T03:36:00.002-07:00

Last night I went to Julio Iglesias' concert at Plenary Hall KLCC, along with Ma.

I bought the ticket as a surprise for Ma, but then at the very last moment, I had to spill the beans as she wanted to go to KLCC(I told her I want her to teman me meet someone there) straight from office! She was shocked for a moment, and even thought it's an April Fool trick. Man I wish I had a camera with me that time so I can capture that look of her face! Ha!

the view from our seats.

Ma+me=Mamee. Ok lame.

The concert was awesome, and eventho I didnt know anything about him except for a fact he's Enrique's dad(I hate Enrique btw), I was blown away. It's so beautiful. And he's one funny guy too! But I only know one song yang dia nyanyi, and it's not even his song lol. It's Elvis' Cant Help Falling in Love.

"tonight, grab your partner and do tango. you will get pregnant immediately." ha!

the man himself

muka satisfied :D

But all in all it's a great night. Beautiful, beautiful night spent with the greatest mom in the whole world :) Money well spent.

But after a few hours sampai rumah, I was online at that time and I found out that Allahyarham Din Beramboi passed away. Semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat. Al-Fatihah.

For someone who listen to his breakfast show everyday like me, it's a big loss. Less laughter in Malaysia after this. :(

Merak

Esok nak bangun kul 12 chup!

2010-03-31T10:14:00.000-07:00

End of class for this week! Yeayyyyyyyyyy!
Esok blh bangun bila matahari kat atas dahi. Double yeayyyyyy!

This sem I have one design subject. I love design subjects! Eventho kadang sakit kepala. So this is my hasil for magazine spread assignment.

(info/pic source: unicef)

I know, a lil bit messy. Due to last minute punya keje. Macamni la hasilnya. Esok dah nak anta baru cari software yang dah expired lah apa lah.

I did on pediatric hiv/aids for unicef(feeling2 je), kalau rajin bacalah :)

I always love designing. I even had a thought of pursuing my degree in publishing. But ntah lah, I'm still thinking(sbenarnya tak fikir pun).

Apa aku membebel ni?

Okaylah bye!

Merak

Hectic

2010-03-28T13:13:00.001-07:00

Sorry blog, been busy, and still.

I should be doing my assignments right now, but oh well.. You know me!

Last week, if I can sum it up in one word, was a TORTURE for me. Deadlines for this and that.
And I can foresee, this week is gonna be the same.

So for my Malaysian-LAH Campaign, I'm in the media team, and our job is to call up the media and make sure they publish stories about the campaignlah, if we want to get an A.

To be honest, it's really hard to deal with media since we're students so they take us for granted. Plus, it's a class project, not faculty or college project. Lagilah kan? So we have to call millions times just to get their attention. It's a bit frustrating at first but I think we managed to overcome it and pull this off!

So... Dengan usaha gigih ahli ahli Media Relations team, this is what we got, so far..

Hitz FM has been announcing our campaign for more than a week now. So, radio, CHECK!
TimeOut KL has agreed to publish a story bout this campaign (also in their website, click link).
Oh, Malaysia Today, too.
Magazines, CHECK!

I'm in charge of malay newspaper, and guess what?

WHEEEE half page baby! Thanks Utusan!

and not just that, we appeared in Chinese newspapers too!

So, newspapers, check!!

And tomorrow our team leader Nick and Mr Faisal will appear in Malaysia Hari Ini on TV3, 8am. Dont forget to watch okay. And we get 10 minutes slot, so that's A LOT.
TV, check!

I really hope this event will become a success and we all shall get A++++! Haha.

Oh for those who dont have any idea about this campaign, please click here.

And marilah kita bersama beramai ramai menjayakan kempen Malaysian-LAH!
Date : 3 April 2010 (Saturday)
Time : 11am – 6pm
Venue : e@Curve (formally known as Cineleisure)

Signing off,
Merak

I am gay

2010-03-21T21:27:00.000-07:00

(as in happy)

...and I'm blessed.

I'm surrounded by great people, and I couldn't ask for more. I am, really really content with my life now.

but there's this voice in my head that keep saying "there's got to be more to life than this".

Come May, there will be no obstacles(...well, unless Ma says no) for everything that I wanna do, what I've always dreamt to do.

I wanna go do crazy things, bungee jumping, diving, that xtreme ride at KL Tower(or have they moved that thing to Sunway already), zorbing, taman negara trip!, firefly sighting, go holiday with only RM100.

and the list goes on.

anything else yang best tak?

And now pun, I'm planning one crazy thing dah. But NOT literally crazy lah. Cannnnnt wait!

Merak

oh bummer:(

2010-03-18T07:43:00.000-07:00

I dont know why im writtting this.I should be studying. but i cant focus.My test is tomorrow.Thank god it has nothing to do or contribute to my final grade.While i was reading.He sent me a message.He said :

`I tatau kenapa life i jadi macam ni,maybe i tak appreciate them last time.`..I asked `u miss them,dont you,go make the first move`..He replied `I nak tido`.

It is sad to know that he is like this.He never showed me before.

Was it my fault?Was it his?Was it their fault?was it both parties fault?was it my fault?...was it me?I wish i have an answer for this.Deep down i know its mine.I shouldnt be `there` in the first place

The truth is i know..i fucking know he misses them,too much.He wont tell me.He`s just too ego to admit.And im so sad that i cant help him.I cant do anything to make him feel better.My words will not effect or change what he feels now.Oh im a bummer.Im guilty for that.I wish there`s something i can do.I love him too much to let him go.If i let him go,i know things will get better,but i cant lose him.Im selfish i know.Its my fault all this happened.How i wish there`s time machine...

maybe i shouldnt come in the picture in the very first place.I shouldnt be .God,why is all these challenged that u gave me is very hard for me to face?to swallow?Give me chance to taste the sweet experience of life,even a little even for just one moment.Amin.I hope YOU are hearing my prayer up there.I trust You ,You will help me.I know,one day even I`ve been bad,forgetting to connect, with you 5 times a day ,Im trying to change,I want to change ,for the best,for YOU.

He`ll be mad if he read this.But im sorry i wish there`s something i can do to heal u.I love you.

And to you babah,I love you.Whatever happens in the furture i promise to take care of you.That`s my promise.

sepet

I didn't know that!

2010-03-18T00:58:00.000-07:00

Semalam 17hb Mac.

As usual, I went on a bus.
I saw something I've never seen before. That made me utterly shocked.

ROAD CLOSED FOR ST. PATRICK'S DAY CELEBRATION.
One side of One Utama was green, green lights everywhere.

For all I know, St. Patrick's Day is all about green shamrock, beer, St Patrick(duh) and how he brought Christianity to Ireland.

I can't figure out a reason what's the significance of celebrating that day here in Malaysia. The so-called Islam country. No, I'm not trying to be alim here but, come on... This is so wrong!

Nak cakap they saja-saja celebrate in honor of St Patrick, mcm pelik. He brought Christianity to Ireland, not Malaysia. And I don't think we have that many Irish here? Compared to Malay, Chinese, Indian and orang asli.

Nak ckp they saja-saja celebrate sbb start of spring, this is freaking Malaysia, with no seasons, SUMMER all the way kot. Skarang pun PANAS gila! Spring kepalahotak?

Or to cater the needs of orang orang yang bukan mat saleh tapi perasan mat saleh and lebih mat salehness dari mat saleh?
Maybe.

Even Valentine's Day celebration is much more merrier than Hari Raya, in my college. At my friends' colleges too.

Sorry if I sound emotional. But ntahlahh.. I think I should be.

Merak

p/s: Sorry tade picture, the bus didn't stop so I cant use my hp to capture the signage. And the green building.
p/s/s: No offense to all my Christian friends.

Why boat?

2010-03-15T23:57:00.000-07:00

(Title tiada kena mengena, it's an inside joke hikhik)

I found these pics in FB.
GOD I LOVE THE INTERNET!

Cuba teka siapa ni?

Wah wah, bukan main lagi. Dengan Ray-ban sangkut kat baju, payung sebelah tangan and keropok lekor kat satu lagi.
True budak itm terengganu ni! :P
Tak tahan betul posing semua kaki silang sama je. Ihik.

Caption gbr: Shopping trip @Singapore.
Ewah plastic bag besar bebeno. Sakan.
Nvm, I'll have mine soon. Next thing you know you get a phone call from me all the way from Bangkok :DD

Haih whyyyyy oh whyyy did you buang your bajus?
I WANTTTTTTT.

I hope when I grow old my kids wont post my pics from zaman muda remaja on their blogs.
AMIN.

Merak

Thanks :)

2010-03-15T08:54:00.000-07:00

Beautiful, just beautiful.
Now, play that guitar. Haha.

Saranghae. Cant wait to see you this weekend!

Merak

165cm?tipu ni

2010-03-08T01:18:00.000-08:00

Its not too late to blog about my newborn niece.Im too excited!It was on the 20th feb 2010,8.58 am when im officially an aunt to a babygirl named SHAMEEN.She is the definition of what we call ``LOVE`..Lots of going up and down to/from the hospital because of the false alarm though,haha...

Hey shameen,belum apa-apa dah ada masalah dunia ke sayang?You`ll face all this shits in life once u grow up.We`ve been there,but aunty (cherh aunty dah sekarang)hopes u`ll face it.Make us proud baby shameen=)

Its been so long that I havent seen my dad been so happy and glowing not until the day shameen was safely delivered in this world.He was truly happyyyyy!!And we all are..

Take a look at this site ...http://www.thefrenchflair.blogspot.com/....Give some support and show some love by buying stuff guys..hahah!What?Im just helping my friend to promote this blog.Not because im in the picture though=p.And by the way im not 165cm like what she stated.ahah.In just 158cm je..

And owh.i have just created formspring.Formspring me!Take a look at the url below this post.Ask me anything and i`ll answer that`s a promise=D..Till then guys!

Wait I believe i havent blog about this.Mr boyfriend is getting a snake as a pet?Likeee eee.Da lah snake is my biggest fear.He even had bought scorpions.Sayang,what has gotten into you=s..Please change your mind about buying snake,please=(..Just buy anything,now i really dont care if u want a puppy!!

p/s:see u this thursday bebe!=)im soo excited.ahaha

sepeet!

formspringme

2010-03-08T00:04:00.000-08:00

http://www.formspring.me/nazirahjalil click here.I`ll answer everything that u wanna know about me.remove all the doubts ur having..dont assume if u dont know so just ask!=) Everyone are welcome to ask anything cause u`ll be anonymous,no need to worry!

SEPET

Lost for words

2010-03-06T04:06:00.000-08:00

Damn damn damn damn damn dayumnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!

Just by looking at all these pix gives me shoegasm!
Thanks SHOELUST.

How I wish I own these jawdropperss!

Merak

Words

2010-03-03T18:58:00.000-08:00

Nasty people are sad people.
When you know the truth about them,
You wont be angry, but actually feel sorry for them.

Merak

2010-03-01T02:10:00.001-08:00

That old couple is too cute!

But you know whats cuter?

Text message that sounds like this:

"Pen merah,
Pen biru,
Cikgu marah,
I love you"

Haha. Comel je.

Merak

Splashing boots and kicking mud

2010-02-27T05:54:00.000-08:00

(tade kena mengena dengan title)

Tadi malas nak sign in but masuk blog ni nak check cbox (Iylia email me!).

Pastu scroll down tgk previous post, ya Allah buruknya muka diri sendiri hahaha.
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Found this pic tadi. Gambar 6 tahun. Graduation tadika :')
Gelak la nak gelak. Hpmh.

Merak

To All

2010-02-25T23:19:00.000-08:00

Selamat Menyambut Maulidurrasul 1431H, to all muslims.

Today is one of the biggest days for us and I hope all of us celebrate it with mengaji, more zikir & selawat, and praises to Rasulullah s.a.w. on this wonderful Jumaat(well, not just today, hari hari okay?).

May Allah SWT bless him and us all :)

Aeti aka M

Boring thursday.

2010-02-25T09:36:00.000-08:00

Yea today was boring. Had nothing to do, my phone was out of credit(sorry na!), and no new dvds to watch. Oh did I tell you(I know I havent) I watched NEW MOON last weekend with him. Ha ha baru tengok ok.

It was BORING.

Whats with all the hoo-hahs about this movie? Nak kata best sgt tak. But maybe it's just me.
& I dont think Edward is handsome/cute, too much of bone structure thingy going on lol. But maybe it's just me. And Bella is such a goth emo kid.
&& I dont get why the werewolves have to go shirtless most of the times? U jalan2 across the street x wearing baju is it? Gosh. I was complaining about this and he said tu maybe baru lepas bertukar from werewolf to human. Okay if you have time to wear ur pants, Im sure as hell you have the extra few seconds to put on ur shirt.

Cey saja je nak question everything in this movie.

Okay, cerita lain.

So today I was couch potatoing(favorite pastime) to BackTracks on V (Okay I know nothings interesting with watching Boy George's Karma Chameleon vid but oh well..), when it struck me how unproductive my days have been. Ive been doing nothing but tv, sleep, online, thats all. Nothing else, nada! So I got up and think about my tergendala(read: postponed for way too long) diy projects.

I started off with my t-shirt transformation.

I took my plain black tee(which I havent use since Sushi King days - WAYYYY back then) :

With a little help from newspapers, paper cutouts and bleach........

TADAAAAAAA!

I know I messed the bottom part a bit but who cares right? It x need to be perfect.

And I bling-ed my plastic headband, too.

This is GREAT! Should do more tmrw :D

Muka tgh semangat muahahaha.

Karma karma karma chameleon, you come and go, you come and go,
Merak

What a day.

2010-02-23T07:09:00.000-08:00

Woke up at 6a.m, siap siap and went to college.

2hrs later..

Sampai college, rupanya classes cancelled. Forkkkkkkkkkkkk.

2hrs later..

Sampai rumah, aedi tido, and the house key wasnt with me. Forkkkkkkkkkk.

30 mins later..

Berjaya masuk ke rumah and end all the misery.

ok tu je, papai!!!!!!!

hey takdelah..

oh just now I made dinner for my family. I received an sms from my mom petang tadi; "Can u masak for tonite, apa2 je to test your skill."

To test my skills ha? Reallyyyyyyy?

Not long after that she mengaku that shes on kemalasan mode(..or "kemahlasan is in the air", as she said).

Since my air was heavily polluted with kemahlasan also, I made mac and cheese je. 30 minutes, siap on time 90210 starts. YAY!

The normal mac and cheese but I added Domino's chilli flakes, leftover from my bday. Saja alter2 recipe. Eceyyhhh. But sedap letak tu, try it! Tak cepat muak. Hehe, I letak banyak gila(sila rujuk rajah 1.0) mozzarella cheese and sprinkle saki baki parmesan cheese(yang dah mcm hidup segan mati tak mau dlm fridge tu).

Okaylah hari ni nak tido awal.
Nite.
Merak

Happy monday people!

2010-02-21T16:56:00.000-08:00

Not.

I had a great holiday!

Started off with my birthday surprise(thanks again guys). I think you guys dont wanna read about this all over again but nak tulis jugak, saya sayang family dan kawan kawan(real ones) sgt!

Then me and my hermanos went to kelantan for relative's wedding. It's kinda awkward though. Like, there's one whole side of family I never knew before. And I found out that my dad has a 8-month-old cousin! oooooookay.

Then balik kampung for the last time, and spent time with him during the weekends.

I've been telling him about this thai steamboat place near my house yang sedap gila. All you can eat for RM22 per person. Being the competitive individuals(eceyh), kitorang buat pertandingan siapa makan paling banyak(battle of the sexes).

Peserta-peserta: Tamakhaloba1(TM1),20 tahun, female and Tamakhaloba2(TM2), lagi 6 bulan 21 tahun, male.
Mangsa: Bahan bahan steamboat dan Tomyum dan Chikin Soup

First Round

Both pun sangat konfiden dengan diri sendiri, lalu mengambil bahan bahan untuk dimasak dengan banyaknya. Lebih2 lagi TM1 sbb pernah datang so konon tau selok belok pertandingan. Keadaan menyebelahi TM1 sbb TM2 masih terkial kial mencari bahan untuk diambil(banyak sangat, kalau ikut banner, over 150++ items).

Round 2:
TM2 bangkit menguasai pertandingan. Mengambil 1 lagi pinggan penuh dgn bahan bahan dan sempat ambik bbq chikin wings lagi sementara TM1 yang bongkak tadi terkial kial menghabiskan 1st plate.

TM2 rasa tercabar dan taknak kalah. Ambil bahan bahan dgn penuh perasaan haloba. Masih berasa yakin.

Round 3:
Namun tidak diberi peluang oleh TM2 yang had his 3rd round shortly after TM1's 2nd round. Kerang kerang galore feat daging kecil katanya. Cissss.

TM1 never had her 3rd round. And struggled to finish her 2nd.

Round Penutup:
Ni dah tak lawan lawan dah. Dah berdamai. We had cookies and cream, choc chip and strawberry-infused(?) vanilla ice cream. TM2 menambah.

Okay, sumpah gila kenyang okayyyyyyyyyyyyy.

***confession, i dunno how i got so bimbo, it's suppose to be TH, initials for Tamak Haloba but i wrote TM instead. so tadi konon nak cover up, i wrote tamakhaloba rapat rapat.

Merak

Ps. I just realised ashley tisdale's he said she said ada bunyi mcm limp bizkit's break stuff(im listening to it now on v). it's all about he said she said BULL*. Ahhhh, good darjah 6 memories...

holiday season is almost over.

2010-02-19T05:47:00.000-08:00

Hey readers!missing me much?haha.NOT.But i bet merak miss meee too much cause im sweett kan merak kan?ahhaha

So i started off my holiday by planning merak surprise party with nadya and her mum and also nana.Thanks babes and aunty.The plan was nana will take merak out for simple dinner and me and nadya will be at her home setting up the balloon cupcakes and some food.Im glad that she likes the surprise sampai nangis wa cakap lu!hahah.terharu eh?U mesti ingat i tak sayang u mula-mula kan kan?

The sleepover with my amazing-all-time-favourite-highschool-girlfriends wasss awesome!We went pyramid for window shopping,tupai-tupai for dinner and karaoke after that.Tupai-tupai`s food was good.I recommend you guys to go and eat there.They have steamboat and ala carte,macam-macam ada.Kesian afaf,kereta dia punya cermin terksekat tak boleh naik and all the guards at the parking lot come to the rescue but they failed.Ended up we had to send her car back home and use my car evemthough the front window cracked.

I think this holiday is very meaningful because i got to spend it with my lovely friends and boyfriendd!I even get to meet my bubbly bestfriend!Sharifah fatinah budak belajar ganu ni deh.Walaupun aku selalu gaduh dengan kau tapi bila tak jumpa kau aku rindu kau tahu tak!Nadya was there as well.We did a lot of catching up and it was good.Feels like old times.But its better if u were there too merak!

Updates:
My sister is giving birth to a baby girl anytime soon.I cant wait to be an auntyyy!

Saya sangat sedih

2010-02-17T16:14:00.000-08:00

Saya kat kampung saya di Kuala Terengganu sekarang.
Saya tak makan nasi dagang best kat Chendering lagi.
Saya baru discover tempat nasi air best dan baru makan sekali je.
Tempat bundle kat tepi pantai tu bukak hari Jumaat, iaitu esok.
Dan saya balik KL pukul 10am nanti.
Dan takkan ke Kuala Terengganu dah lepas ni.
Sebab nenek saya dah nak pindah.

Macam mana saya nak makan benda benda best tu and shopping bundle lagi lepas ni?
Macam mana? Macam mana??
T_T

Merak

Through it all you're always my best friend.

2010-02-16T22:00:00.000-08:00

Hey you, remember this?

:)

Merak

Come back here faster!

2010-02-14T10:32:00.000-08:00

Thanks sayang :)

Merak

p/s: Happy chinese new year and valentine's day!(For those who celebrate only okay :D)

Sealed with love, to you.

2010-02-13T13:41:00.000-08:00

You filled my days with rainbow lights,
Fairytales and 'sweet dream' nights,
A kiss to wipe away my tears,
Comforting words to ease my fears.

You gave the gift of life to me
And then in love, you set me free.
I thank you for your tender care,
For deep warm hugs and
just for being there.

Allah selamatkan kamu,
Allah selamatkan kamu,
Allah selamatkan Ma,
Allah selamatkan kamu.

Happy birthday Ma.

Aeti Amira

So I blew those candles.

2010-02-11T13:48:00.000-08:00

10th was the last day I'm 19. Now come 12th, I am 20 years and 1 day old. I still feel the same tho despite being told I now have wrinkles(terima kasihhh kawan haha). 19 was a great 365 days for me, the start of everything good in my life. I got back on track. Blessed with the best people around me; family, love and true friends.

I'm not exactly intrigued by the fact that my age starts with 2 now but I am definitely excited to know what's next for me. What's next for us. What's next for all of us.

But it scares me.

Can I behave like a 20-year-old?(paling diragui T_T)
Can I achieve what I plan to achieved last 10 years?
Can I be a better person?

Only time can tell.

So,

Being the boring me, I didn't plan anything at all for my birthday. Then nik texted me that afternoon. So it's all set, casual hangout with nik and nana. At NZ makan koayteow. I was kinda down as Nana was in bad mood and SEPETTT tak wish pun. But when I got back home, SURPRISEEEEE!

Thanks lovers, I didn't expect this AT ALL.
And for the cupcakes, the presents, the balloons and of course, the time spent together.
I would never want it any other way(okay tipu, I'd want him to be here, but I want it exactly like this).
I had so much fun catching up, snapping pix and just simply feel loved.
Dah lah I nangis. Malu je!
And thanks Ma for bersubahat dengan mereka mereka ini.

Siang tadi I bought a new phone, birthday present from Ma, Abang and Arif. Thanks!

This one! I loveeeeeee it to death. I akan jaga dia seperti menatang minyak yang penuh(azam tahun baru) Promise. :')

Thanks for those who wish me jugak.
Eventho tak ramai macam last year(I guess because I dont have fb da now) at least I know who really ingat my birthday hehe.

Still perasan birthday girl eventho dah 12th,
Merak

p/s: Thanks baby for being the first one to wish. I hope you did well in your tests. I loveeee you!

Oh hell yes I am.

2010-02-09T09:35:00.000-08:00

I'm bored and I'm boring.

I just cant wait for cny holidays and get out of here. Seriously, potato couching cant do no more.
Yea, I'm not the girl who always get the "let's hangout?" calls or texts. They are very rare, and if it happens, they only come from my best friends. Mostly from Nik and Nana and Wawa(lol).

I'm the easiest person to ignore.

Believe me when I say that. I'd go unnoticed in class, in cafe, in gathering, you name it. My presence is not significant to people. It's so easy to ignore me. Even my best/close friends ignore me. It's no big deal, heh.

Why?

Maybe for the simple reason of me being boring(haha, so obvious). No, I don't blame them. Cuz being invisible is my superpower. You can crush me, hurt me, and you don't even know it. But don't worry, it's not you, it's me.

So yea, I can't wait for my holidays and spend time with people who actually want to spend their time with me also.

Oh ya, a few updates of my life,
I had fun during Nana's birthday(I shall upload the surprise video soon) albeit the kekantoian of someone later that night. Seriously, you don't have to lie to us, just say it to our faces, it feels better that way. What you did, disgust us.

For PR2 class, we're doing a Malaysian-lah campaign. More or less like 1Malaysia, promotes unity, you get the picture. And there'll be performances, and forum(Sharifah Amani will join us people-ni kena highlight ni). Will post the details soon.

Merak

p/s: Yes, I'm a very negative person.

Pedang kilat cara Avan!!!!

2010-02-06T16:12:00.001-08:00

IKLAN SEBENTAR

Anyone knows where to buy complete set of Misteri Naga(Adventure of Dai)? Pleaseee pleasee please let me know. And Dewata Raya(semua ep. kecuali the first 20)

Saya nak beli.

A few contohs I found on the internet.
Damnn sumpah brings back memories!

My brother used to buy these comic books every month and I'd read it religiously. But now I don't know where they are... I think Mai(suspek utama/prime suspect) throw em away already T__T

Please email me if you know where to buy or f you want to sell ur set(which I doubt).

Thanks!

Merak

Wow, things just couldn't get any better than this!

2010-02-06T04:16:00.000-08:00

It's weekeeeend people!

And I'm at home, ngeh.

Kerja yesterday and due to certain circumstances, I cant work no more.
Well, at least I'll get my one-day work payment soon.

So yeah, just now I found out that it's almost impossible for me to do my degree at uitm. Damn it.
I dont know what to do now. If worse comes to worst, I've to continue at any ipts la. I dont know, UM has Media Studies, but that's it, no other majors. I'm still in the midst of thinking, so no decision has been made yet.

And due to those stuff, I'm so down right now. I hope I can go to Cameron Highlands with him(weyhhhh sumpah I jealous oh u kat sana dammit!). I've never been there before and it's one of my childhood dreams to go there. Mesti best kan, like flowers and ladang teh everywhere?

So to make me feel better, I played wii. Sumpah peluh tak hengat. And Ma decided to join me moments later. And watching Ma playing boogie superstar is definitely not a good sight T___T

Oh ya since I can't work and my wardrobe is bursting with unworn clothes, should I just sell them off?

Hurm.

Merak

Another candle to blow.

2010-02-02T13:07:00.000-08:00

I'm turning 20 in a week.

It really freaks me out how fast time flies.
It made me think about myself.
Of all the changes in my life, I still feel the same deep inside.
The same old me. The same 16 years old Aeti. or maybe 18. or maybe 13.
Is it normal?

But there are changes.

From Enid Blyton and Siri Salma(haha Nancy Drew melayu) to Sweet Valley series to Sidney Sheldon.
From I'm-wearing-baggy-clothes-cuz-I-hate-my-body to ehem, better now. I guess.
From KRU(those were the days man...) to BSB to my abang Mraz and a7x and bykbyklagi.
From I-need-those-appeton-teengrow to I-can-wear-heels-now.

Nah, it's more than that. Spiritually, and physically.

No doubt, I'm wiser eceycey. But on certain things la. Oh well..

I'm still wondering, how are we supposed to feel when we're 20. Ma told me 21's the age. But I' don't drink nor party or whatever so that legal age means... nothing to me?

Do we wake up in the morning thinking "Hm.... I shall have my cup of tea while watching the morning show in pristine white dress"(Haha, okay, this is my imaginary ladylike figure; the tea and all)
Or am I still gonna wake up to "Huwarghhhhhhhhhhhhhh malasnya nak bangunnnnn" with my usual buruk morning face?

We'll see.

L-R: Aeti, Aedi, Diana
with Raimi and Ramzi at the back,
16(?) years ago.

Merak

p/s: Arif just bought Wii RockBand set :D Ketinggalan, I know, but who caresss. And yes, I've deleted my FB last week. And congrats Aedi.(i hope he wont read this)

imma tell you one time

2010-02-01T04:34:00.001-08:00

Wahhh i just realised our blog nowadys very gloomy one,especially after reading several post that i posted previously..So many things happened in my lifee weyhhhh!haha.Glad everything is over,well at least for me.

And to the haters and doubters and blamers,well say all you want because i couldnt care less anymore.Just dont come and destroy my life anymore.Very rude?Yes.But why should i care about other people punya feeling when they dont even care about mine=0

Ahhh..I feel so much relieved now.Anyways,class started and i only have class on tuesday until thursday.So much free time.I`ve decided to register for yoga and dance class.Hopefully everything goes well and i will be able to lose some weight,amin;)

Chinese new year holidays coming up soon.I so cant wait for melaka trip with `em couples...andd anddd andd zorbing AGAIN with myyy all-time favourite high school girls and hopefully the guys can join as well,its beenn ages...

And merak,u wanna know what i miss the most?

OMG...i fucking miss this!those were the days where we used hang out till late night,those sleepovers we had at your house.`The days where rules are meant to be broken because we rule the world yaw`..Remember me and sha used to lie to our parents during our working time,we always told them we will be working till late night and no transport to go home,for the fact that we actually go ghost hunting with the boys..And we named our group `somethng i cant remember`,and me like usual being me with `guys i tak sedap hati la nak pergi ghost hunting hari ni`...I remember u nearly kena rasuk and i couldnt stop crying!!...And remember during the merdeka eve where we went to borneo the four of us,me you nadya and sha,and thats the first time we saw sha doing her dance `naz dapat duit naz dapat duit with her weird yet funny moves?`..And remember when u surprised me on my birthday where i slept at your hostel and i thought i had no friends because all of them were too busy to attend my party that time but suddenly the whole bunch of our friends came withe the fireworks?...HAHA!I cried i swear....And how can i forget when the time u guys want me to snuck in to ur hostel but the guard were being so kerek and u guys put me and iylia in the bonet of my car,i swear we nearly cant breath!!And the times where u guys slept at my house and my bed broke into two,and we couldnt stop laughing!!And u were telling me ur dream about getting a boyfriend and husband like jason mraz so that he can make u breakfast in bed while playing the guitar to your favourite songs and me and sha were drooling over the `abang keyboard` and had a fight with sha over the `abang keyboard`...

Babe,when can we have this againn=( Things changed,but remember our promise to be with each other no matter what..remember bebe?sha?iylia?and nadya?..Goshhhhh.I fucking swear i love and i miss youu guys,like realllllyyy realllyyyyyyyyyyy missss youuuu guys,NO,ACTUALLY I MISS US!!=) =(

If god give me choices i want to go back where we used to have so much fun..where nothing can ever separate uss..ahhh..those were the days..=(

SEPET

Seriously?

2010-01-31T11:35:00.000-08:00

Wow someone wants to see/hear me istighfar? LOL.
Okaylah tanak perasan sgt. I think that person is trying to google ARTI ISTIGFAR.

Random post, I know. Its monday again, bosanlah.

Merak

And so they lived happily ever after

2010-01-26T23:29:00.000-08:00

I love weddings.
Looking at those happy people, with smiles on their faces, warmth my heart.
Everyone seems so happy, you can barely see a frown. Eh memang tade pun.
It brings people together.
And to me, it's the only slice of fairy tale that's real.

Last Saturday, I went to Yah and Kevin's wedding. Congratulations you two!
It was such a beautiful, wonderful wedding.

the beautiful newlyweds.

flower throw. okay muka sepet sumpah semangated!
main rugby sure menang ni. and mun jugak hehe.

that's afaf on the right

(first two pics taken from Sepet's soon to be brother-in-law's fb. thanks!)

I wish my brother kawen cepat cepat! Haha. Too bad he's only 22 :(

Oh ya, if you guys didn't know yet, Sekolah Aminuddin Baki is among the 20 schools that had been accorded the status of high performance schools . Malaysia's top 20 schools, man! Mind you, only 4 day schools are in the list. Thats big.
Haha gila bangga kannn.

click pic to enlarge

Tiba-tiba rindu zaman sekolah. I still remember kena kutip sampah pagi-pagi sebab sampai lambat. It's not my fault! Traffic's a bitch. And oh 20sen denda cuz I din wear the black ribbon in my hair.

Oh those days..........

and btw, I'm loving GLEEEEEE!

Esok dan esok dan esok dan esok dan esok tiada kelas yay,
Merak

p/s: Sepet, just don't give a damn bout those people okay. They think they're all that, they can do anything to others. Well its nice to be important, but its more important to be nice.

they say,i say

2010-01-26T20:18:00.000-08:00

They say `jakun gila tangkap gambar dengan hummer!`.....

I say suka hati aku lah.ada problem?ada masalah?ada kacau hidup korang ke?Sorry la..memang jakun.. aku tak mampu nak beli those expensive cars tangkap gambar je mampu,unlike YOU,kau kan KAYA tak jakun,classy,mampu..pffffttttttttt..Orang lain buat tak jadi issue plak kan?time aku bantai macam haram.

Benda ni pun boleh jadi issue,tah ape2,sempit betul pemikiran.

After so long,I only get to know it now?wtf!

haaaa..kalau nak tgk aku jakun lagi pergilah facebook tgk gambar.ALMAKLUMLAH ORG JAKUN KAN MESTILAH BANYAK GMBAR DGN HUMMER..PFFTTTTT

Sepet.

changed.memories.

2010-01-25T20:33:00.000-08:00

It's funny how we used to be so close but now we are a complete stranger-facebook group- but anyways whether we want it or we don't want it,things happened.sigh.

Sepet.

Untitled

2010-01-18T12:29:00.000-08:00

Im at the lowest point in my life right now. Im so down. Im so blue.
I dont know if I should write this here but I just cant keep this in anymore.
It's taking its toll on me.

Hurm.. I wonder,
Why people always leave,
When we need them the most.
Those who promised they'd stay no matter what.
Is it because I just dont worth it?
Well, I think I am. Worthless piece of meat.
Useless. Kalau-tak-wujud-lagi-bagus.

I cant help it.

I have class tmrw and I have to wake up at 6,
less than 2 hours to go,
It scares the shit outta me,
can I survive 9-6.30 classes later?
I dont drink coffee.
How am I supposed to last. Damn it.
But I just cant sleep!
I couldnt stop crying. My eyes hurt.
What did I do to deserve this?

Sometimes I wish I had never existed.
Ah, people wouldnt notice the difference pun.

Merak
p/s: no im not trying to gain sympathy whatsoever, i just need to let it out.

I miss you :'(

2010-01-15T23:59:00.000-08:00

It's been more than a year since I lost you,
You left me, with no messages at all,
You left me, when I need you the most,
You left me, when my love to you very the membuak buak.
(eventho you suka menyakiti I)
I miss you sooooo much, you sexay thangggggg!

I miss you so much, Mr.!
nobody(spesis hedgehog) can replace you.

Gambar Serasi Bersama(suatu ketika dahulu) T_T

Yang sedang berduka,
Merak

My amazing story.... NOT!

2010-01-14T14:51:00.000-08:00

Blog ni dah jadi macam tempat mengeluh keluh kesah kak esah. But I guess thats one of the reasons why we decided to have this blog. As our outlet.

Siapa lagi nak dengar semua ni kan? Bimbang kalau kalau kita cerita kat orang, orang malas nak dengar tapi terpaksa dengar. I dont want that.

Pagi-pagi bangun kul 6, siap-siap untuk ke college. Orang lain masih relax relax sebab kelas pukul 9 tapi aku pukul 7 dah bersiap nak ke lrt. Yes, it took me 2(..or more) hours to get to college. And yes, its not a fun way to start a day. Imagine no seats, inconsiderate ppl who love to tolak tolak, those construction workers(smelly ones sahaja), kena kentut right infront of your face in the bus(personal experience u guys!). Siap wangi2 pun boleh jadi busuk masa sampai college. But I have to suck it up! 1 more sems to go. For those who look down on me cuz I take bus, f u. Im not rich like you guys. And oh, imagine my class finishes at 5.30 and I reach home at 9. Bravo! Thank God 2 hari je class.

Eventhough my classes dua hari je, I dont go out much. I spend my time at home doing nothing. Hurm.... I guess maybe people just dont like hanging out with me. Am I that boring?? Haha. I know I'm not cool. But I can be fun sometimes lol. Maybe being a wallflower is what I do best, no?

Today, another day alone at home. Grreeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat.
Another round of Jason Mraz, please!

Merak

p/s: I got 4.0 for last sem peoooopleeee. hahahahahahahahaah.(Ally, and the rest, dont get mad at me, I cuma nak ikut jejak langkah idola you je.)

no title(sepet again,btw)

2010-01-11T08:28:00.000-08:00

Hey readers....

I`ve come to realise if you bitch about people it will eventually come right up to your face.There`s a saying `the person who you bitch with will bitch about u back.Its karma.PERIOD.I`ve received my punishment.I dont blame anybody.

And so everything is settled.Im cool with everybody.I deleted some of them from my fb list to move on and just forget about everythng that had happened.Cause if not i will keep thinking and thinking about what has happened and made me stresss and burst into tears..Its the best way,I think.So u guys will know nothing about me or anything that related to me that makes u guys happy as im out of u guys punya life .happy kan now?I know u guys cant accept me..i know i know..I never meant to make things worst..I just want to live and lead a happy life apart from my family problems and other problems.I was hoping for at least friends to have fun with..And if the pictures i posted on fb when im in dubai,is a big deal for u guys,im sorry,i never mean to brag about it.Fyi,yea i do treasure u guys as a friend and friends that i have now.

And i just hope this thing wont happen again,ever again.Seriously i had fun hanging out with you guys,i really do appreciate u guys even you guys are just my second degree friends but it feels just like my own friends.I just hope one day,when we meet again,IF we were EVER to meet again,everything will be back to normal...

And so i`ve been told that u guys dont like me and cant accept me with him.To whom it may concerned(u`ve been here,ur friends cant accept with who you are with,u know how it feels,how does it feels?feels bad right,like really bad..and what u did was stick with the one u love..just like his situation..its just the same,but i just cant understand why I have to be treated this way).I really thought that u guys can accept us,gosh im wrong.Seriously its fucking dissapointing.(kenapa tak beritahu awal2 kalau tak boleh accept) I know u guys hate me by now..but really i never meant to ruin the friendship u guys had,is it my fault to fall in love with him?I dont know why all of sudden this thing happen?Im clueless.For the accusation that have been made,never bother to ask me or him what really happened.And for that i`ve been labeled.

So its best this way.Off without u guys..I know u guys dont care about me at all or just dont give a damn but i do care..No more drama.No more chaos.No more problems and troubles.I back off.It was a pleasure knowing you guys,take care.

Sorry for everything that might hurt u guys in any ways,i really meant it.One thing for sure i will never ever halang him from being friends with you guys and i hope and pray that u guys punya friendship will last forever.Im willing to do anythng,whatever it takes, just to fix u guys punya friendship as u guys think that im the one yg buat benda jadi macam ni. I hope and pray.Good luck in facing life.=)

yours truly,
sepet

I hate this part right here.

2010-01-10T09:42:00.000-08:00

It's one of those days again. The end of a great weekend. The end of my happiness, at the mo'.

It's funny how quick time goes by when you're with me. and when you're gone, time seems so slow, torturing me every single second. Even a minute seems like forever.

It's funny how happy I was just now, and in a snap, I feel so miserable, so down, so blue.

It's as if a part of me went away with you when you left, leaving me empty, soul-less.

I miss watching our favourite series together till dawn,
I miss your jokes,
I miss your laughs, I miss laughing,
I miss gaduh with you and laugh about it the next day,
I miss sing-along to our favourite band together,
I miss having you around all the time,
I miss your presence,
I miss you.

And now I'm counting days till we meet again.

Merak

I may be paranoid, but no android.

2010-01-08T13:03:00.000-08:00

Setiap manusia ada insecurity mereka sendiri. Boleh jadi positif, boleh jadi negatif. Cuma most of the time negatif-lah.

As for me, I'm very insecure with myself. I have low self esteem. Almost no confidence at all. Pengakuan berani.

Maybe sebab tu tak ramai kawan kot. Kalau baru jumpa ke apa memang susahlah nak borak. I akan diam je. Maybe lama2 baru lah mulut bising banyak ckp. Kenapa macam ni ey? Lagi lagi kalau nak tegur orang ke apa. Takut betul. Mesti nak fikir org tu akan fikir "what is this weirdo doing, talking to me?" T______T

Kadang-kadang rasa nak pegi kem jati diri ke kem bina semangat ke. Tapi ada lagi ke utk orang tua mcm saya ni haha.

Hurm maybe I jadi macam ni sbb... I dunno.. Surrounding, how I grew up and whatnots la kan.

But whatever.

Azam tahun baru saya nak jadi seorang yang pemberani, dan be more confident!

Harap-harap azam ni takkan dibawa ke tahun depan seperti tahun2 sebelum ni haha. I dont believe in new year resolution but azam tahun baru adalah nak percaya in new year resolution.

So, memandangkan I'll be 20 this year, 2010, heres a list of my new year resolutionSSSS:

Belajar betul betul yang betul betul punya betul betul.
Learn korean!(Tiada pengaruh wondergirls lansung harap maklum)
Learn how to play guitar(Azam yang dah tertangguh selama 3 tahun T__T)
Go backpacking mana2 best.
Ambik lesen(for real this time, gerenti lulus haha) and volunteer for rumah orang orang tua(tertangguh 1 year)
And of course be a better person so the ppl around me tak pening kepala dah.

Hahaha okayy banyak gila!

Off topic,

Jap lagi nak potong rambut!!! Harap harap it will turn out great or else......... And nak tgk movie with him. Imaginarium of dr parnassus or Sherlock Holmes or both?

Haih, dilemma lagi....

Merak

p/s: I know, I know, title takde kena mengena. Haha.

this is what happens when parents have fb

2010-01-05T23:09:00.001-08:00

click image to enlarge

Found this in CH and Lamebook. ROTFL.

Merak

***edited: tadi lupa post the first part T___T sowweeeeeee

ouch

2010-01-04T20:32:00.000-08:00

Ah,now i know it is for me.Thanks for telling*...*.Why dont you just put my name on it.

If ur friend is not happy with me,ask him to leave me,he would leave me if he`s not,then why stay?i never forced him to.

If i ruined your relationship with your friend,then im sorry.i dont know what people been talking about me,spread lies

Ah yes,i control my bf from taking drugs,alcohol,and go to places like club or whatsoever because he does the same thing,and is it wrong to do so?

I never ask your friend to accompany me wherever i go or what im supposed to do EVERY FUCKING SINGLE TIME,for all you know he volunteer himself,ask him for details u guys want to know more

Ah im sick of this public humialiation,thanks for being nice infront of me and later talk bad about me

And who said i ever blamed you guys for the thing that he did?huh?The incident??Yes i was mad with him and real mad.DId i ever askk him not to befriend with you guys?Please ask him.

Qc ,Bc?Thanks a heap.really.

After we are officially together,ask him how many times i ask him to go out with you guys??

What you see and what you heard its not like what u expected...Talk all you want,for all u know,u are talking about yourself.And i really thought i can trust u guys as i already considered you guys as a friend.Gosh.Backstabing is really really hurtful to the victim.

And for the outing that u guys organised,ask him,have i ever halang him from keluar with you guys?Ask him have i ever talk bout about you guys?Especially the two of you.

And im sorry if i ever ruined ur friendship.I back off.Im tired of all this dramas.

And I never forced him to buy anything i want or whatsoever,like you guys thought.Its useless to explain further.Just ask ur friend.And ask him to swear if what he said is true...I cant explain,cause later,in the end,i`ll be labeled as two faces bitch.

...(?)

2010-01-04T18:07:00.001-08:00

The night b4 bbq
I messaged jeje:

Me:jumpa mlm ni jum kat castle i nk bg brg kat u

Jeje:ha?mlm ni?ada bbq,u tak g ke?

*looking and asking him*
Me:mlm ni ada bbq jeje ckp

Him:aah memang ada pun.

Me:oh ye ke,nape x ckp?

Him:sbb i x pergi

Me:nape tak nak pergi yang?

Him:sbb ..........

The night before new year,

Me:malam ni ada bbq kat rumah aunty i yg.

Him:ouh ye ke.tapi lepas tu i nak pergi jumpa kawan i kat hartamas.jom la yang?

Me:ok yang.tapi kalau angah tak bagi ke,you pergi je k?

Him:okay yang..

After the bbq
Me:asal tak pergi lagi ni?da pukul berapa ni?

Him:i tak pergi yang..

Me:aik,kenapa,pergilah

Him:sbb.......

The day before karaoke:

Him:yang jangan lupa besok karaoke tau?

Me:tahu.i ingat la sayang

Him:you jangan lupa plak

The night before

Him:yang toucing gila ouh.

Me:nape yang?

Him:sbb........

Few hours before

Me:yang,jom je la.i da janji dengan jeje nk pergi,best nanti!

Him:i tak boleh yang sbb.....

Me:ala jom je la.kejap je pun lah takpe

Him:asal u nak pergi sangat ni?i hantar u nak?u tak paham la i kene.......

Me:hm.ye la ye la

Thanks for all the labels.and yang,only we both know what happened..

I swear on my parents name,what i said is true.thanks a heap guys.

Sepet

i just want to let it out.can i?

2010-01-01T09:46:00.000-08:00

hey there,lady,or should i say life destroyer?
i just want to say thank for taking him away from us

thank you for making me and my siblings life miserable

thank u for making us have doubts on him

thank you for making us spend our raya without him twice since we lost our mother

thank you for making my sister`s wedding plan a disaster(BOTH SISTERS)

thank u for not letting my sister having her wedding at `this` house

thank you for blaming him for everythng that u have done and afterwards told us not to tell him?

thank you for being a two faces creature

thank you for making my sister pay for her own wedding where it should be his responsible but because of you,everythng turns upside down

thank you for letting him sleep at the couch and ran away for several days because of your fucked up attitude

thank you for making me fake my smile and laugh and words everytime you are around,its only for his sake for all you know

thank you for letting him walk all the way from giant to our house with sweating body and AGAIN because of ur fucked up attitude
Which is like 5 to 6 km from my house

thank you for yelling at him everytime u guys had a fight

thank you for not making him happy

thank you for claiming my late mom`s car as your car and claim that u bought that for your mom?common who are you kiddding?

thank you for making faces everytime we talk to him

thank you for making him bank in duit raya in our account?duit raya?bank in?what the hell

thank you for taking most of our property and give it to your family

thank you for always saying
my dad is old.wait why did you marry him in the first place?

thank you for AGAIN for making me and my siblings sad?and fake our happiness?

thank you for pretending to be nice to us,nice try

thank you for making me guilty everytime i talked bad about you bacause of your fake sympathy

thank you for letting us know all ur lies,not knowing we know the truth

thank you for your sweet promises before u guys get togeteher

thank you for controlling him from giving money to us

thank you for making us see or meet him in our own house three or twice a week just to say `hi?`

thank you for telling us that u love him

thank you for making me jelouse everytime i see a family go out together,cause eversince you with him,i never go out with him ever again

thank you for everything

thank you and thank you..NOT!

i would thank you more if you leave him..so please do so.

i do this all because of him,cause i love him more than anything else in this world

you think my life is perfect?think again.sometimes i fake smile laugh and pretend to be happy..for the fact that deep down i always dream for a happy family..WITHOUT YOU AND YOUR FAMILY

i`ve been keeping this for far too long,im sorry i just had to say this,i cant stand it anymore,no one would understand,mr boyf would be mad everytime i talked about this?soooo who am i gonna tell this to?The only thing to do if i cant stand this is burst into tears,but for how long more?

yours truly,
sepet

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010!

2009-12-31T21:13:00.000-08:00

Hey all,

First of all, happy new year! May this year brings more happiness and prosperity and good and positive things to us. Insya Allah.

I'm gonna miss 2009. Too many happy moments and new experiences :) I'm gonna miss you 2009!

I'll be having a never-ending post if I were to write about 2009. Lets just say it was great. Thanks to family, friends and him!

I didn't go anywhere last night. I thought its better to be at home karaoke-ing bsb, britney and whatnots followed by a movie marathon with family than to stuck in the traffic jams. Past years experiences taught me so much. haha. So rather than be in the car, cursing, I was at home watching da vinci code on axn, but halfway only :P Then tukar.

How bout you? I hope you guys had a blast!

Merak

oh yes i am

2009-12-29T20:52:00.000-08:00

Merak

Who's yours?

2009-12-20T09:32:00.000-08:00

Heehee. (gediknya)

Merak

URBAN LEGENDS

2009-12-19T08:13:00.000-08:00

Today was a day just like any other, with nothing to do. And nothing on the internet seems to intrigued me until I found this website about urban legends.

I'm sure each one of us have heard at least one of these stories. Lagi-lagi kalau pasal asrama or kat sekolah. These urban legends usually passed down from seniors to juniors, from one generation to another. I never went to a boarding school before but I did go to few camps so bila malam apa lagi kan? Cerita hantu la!

Korang pernah dgr tak pasal nenek kebayan duduk atas locker kacau org yang belum tidur? Katil 1 dah tidur, katil 2 dah tidur, katil 3 bila nak tidur? Huish SERAM.

Or the one yang ada 'kawan' dia minta teman pegi toilet, then bila da kat toilet ni si 'kawan' lama bebeno duk dalam jamban so dia check la, tgk2 si 'kawan' ni tak berkaki. Apa lagi, dia pun act cool and ckp "weh aku balik dorm dulu la, ngantuk", and ketika itulah "kawan' ni menjawap 'kau ngantuk ke kau dah tau~~~" Jangan main2, bermodalkan cerita ni lah, I menang paddock access ticket for Hoobastank punya concert from Hitz.fm masa form 3! LOL

Tapi yang paling seram is hantu pad. Haaaa yang ni dia suka orang pengotor yang buang pad merata. EEEEEEEEE. I cant imagine!

So, have you ever had an encounter with a ghost? I know I don't. Well not really!

click image to enlarge

Ni gambar masa I pegi rumah kosong kat Taman Duta. 3 perempuan, sorang laki. Rumah tu tade pape, but it appeared in the pic saja. Tapi sumpah masa bukak this pic tadi, rasa macam pucat satu badan. Kalau korang tak nampak, in between me and nik, macam ada sesuatu. Mcm tepi pipi, ber-fringe. and kat dada nik ada shadow macam jari jemari gitu. Ada satu lagi gambar, lagi jelas. Yang tu kat Bukit Tunku tapi dah delete, takut sgt, OK WHY THE HELL AM I WRITING THIS PUKUL 3 PAGI?? NOW IM IMAGINING AND HEARING THINGS.OH.MY.GOD.IM.SCAREDD..

I think I have to creep to bed and peluk my nenek cepat cepat.

Bye,
Merak

hello blogger

2009-12-17T23:00:00.000-08:00

HEy bebe.this post is especially for you.since u want me to update blog sangat=p.i am so gonna miss you.ala wat lek sudah,2 minggu je pun.ahhha.bajet macam nak peergggii setahunn.sooo.i love youuuu bebe!muahhhhhh!!

yours truly
sepettt the great=)

Status: Cuckoooooo

2009-12-16T11:20:00.000-08:00

Hello folks!

It's been a longgg day and God, I gained weight, like again! URGH. dont ask me what happened to im-gonna-start-jogging-everyday-starting-tmrw, cuz baby, it aint happening, YET. hate myself.

and Im having some trouble in sleeping, and its been going on for a couple of days. double URGH. It's 5a.m now and I'm still wasting my time infront of the computer writing this junk. Im gonna go get some xanax from farmasi Lim/Lau pronto. KIDDING.

So, the results: Bad case of eyebag/black circles + big fat tummy = omaigod im a freakingg PANDAAAAAAAA.

DAYUMMMN.

I need these right now:

my nyenyeeeeehhhhhhhhh

my girls
(niko's bday @niko's place!)

my 4inches babies. gediknya. :P
(zetty, miss you!)

okay off topic. since i mengamalkan konsep sharing is caring, heres a few website that made me LOL-ing pretty hard these days.

The Oatmeal --lololove the comics. check out The 8 Most Awkward Workouts!
Lamebook -- funniest and lamest of fb, nuff said. (Thanks Atul!)
FML -- source of LOLs, and to make me feel good on my bad hair days.

Okaylah
Till next time,

Panda (previously known as Merak)

WACHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

Best friends are sisters destiny forgot to give you.

2009-12-13T10:30:00.000-08:00

I would love to make a shout out here,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIK FARAH AISHAH!

I wish you happiness and joy in life,
and many more birthdays to bring you delight!

All four of us (Wawa, Nana, Awie and Yours Truly) stayed at Nik's place for the past two days, def the best two days of my life!

I never laughed this much,
I never talked this much.
I never had this much fun.

I am so grateful that I have best friends just like them; who accept me for who I am(even my too-many-to-count flaws), who never ever judge me, who never make me feel left out even we're miles apart, who share soo many things in common yet sooo different(...three! haha. inside joke), who are willing to drive kilometers just to wipe your tears, who always be there for me no matter what..

"A true friend is someone who thinks that you are a good egg even though she knows that you are slightly cracked."

sayang-sayang saya

sorry wawa but i just have to put this pic up lol.

Thanks for the great times shared. Bukan senang nak cukup korum! And also thanks to Auntie and Kak Hana :)

......and the swimming pool is the best! haha sumpah kitorang jakun(especially wawa..haha).

Loves,
Merak

p/s: I didnt bring my camera. So have to tunggu others upload pics.

Apa boleh dibuat apabila sedang cuti, tiada duit dan rakan karib sedang final exam?

2009-12-09T11:53:00.000-08:00

(.........Pause 5 minit)

What else can I write??? The title explains everything!

Yeah I'm on holiday but I've no money(all spent during my previous vacations), and Sepet is having her final exam.Eh kenapa ulang balik title in english.

Ok ok.

I just got back last Saturday and already running out of activities to do at home.
I'm superbored but somehow I love this feeling. You know, the i-can-wake-up-anytime-i-want-doing-nothing feeling. Wake up to Travis, or Maria Mena. Lazing and couch potato-ing on my mom's red sofa watching AFC, or History Channel.

Me. Haha.

But I know I have to shake the laziness-dust(?) off me. So just now I did my thangggggg in the kitchen and spring cleaning my room.

And tmrw morning, I'm gonna go jogging with my mom. KATANYA. We'll see!

Toodles haha
Merak

p/s: Okay tak layout baru?

jai ho!Hi im sepet!

2009-11-30T07:42:00.000-08:00

Sorry for the long dissapearance.Been lazy to update my blog.Sorry cik merak!

And so my final exam is coming up real soon.Its on the 9th and ends on the 14th.Im so stress okay!Ye laa,semua my friends hass already started their holiday okay.while me?im stuck at home,studying.But well not much of studying though,been procastinating all the time.Oh i hate that.Im missing my dear lovely girlfriends that goes to you merak,without saying.Oh i did write girlfriends,and that goes for you,ieqa,afaf and shhhhaaa!!After exam,promise hang out lama-lama gila okay!I miss my guyys schoolmate as well.oh december please enddd fast.CAN I JUST SKIP THIS MONTH?holy sh*t!

I really need a vacation!Abu dhabi here i come!yeay!Im going to Abu Dhabi on the 18th!Life has been pretty sucks lately.I dont know why but i just want to dissapear,move to another country meet new people.!Not to say that i dont like the people i`ve met,but nahh i just feel like meeting new,fresh people.I dont need gossips,i dont like people talk about me,i`ll be paranoid.I dont know but i dont like it.Its none of their business but why do they care so much?My life doesnt revolves around them.*dont take this personally,its general*

Mr bf has been very garang nowadays!benci gila okay!hahah!=p

I ve been to zorbing in titiwangsa with college mates.It was fun but as the result of being rolled down twice,i`ve had musleache like for a weekkk??But it was thrilled la.We were shouting like hell!Oh btw it is just 25rm per person or was it 15rm?I cant remember!

I dont know why im writting this,like,who wanna know about my life,im pretty sure u guys just dont concern much about it

*I MISS MY BABAH!He is here but he`s not here.NAh u guys dont understand.Life is at its lowest.GAH.WHEN CAN I HAVE MY HAPPINESSS??? Okay that was random.

Err,i should be studying now but my arms hurt!This is due for playing bowling non stop.But ehhh,not real bowling la kot.Its just wii.Well who cares?

erghh.bored.im outta here.

Btw siapakah gerangan encik izzat yang tanya bila nak pergi zorbing?DAH pergi dah cik abang oi!=)

*I regret most of the things i do,it sucks kan??Why do i feel like my life is empty even my friends and bf and not to forget my family is always here for me,why why why????Something is missing,and what is that?*

Wanna know something?

2009-11-18T10:20:00.000-08:00

Nothing beats watching Mamma Mia and Grease back to back with the people I love :)

Merak

2009-11-13T20:58:00.000-08:00

This post has no title.
Yesterday I went to watch a movie, not a serious movie or a drama but it got me thinking.

Life is supposed to be simple, Love is supposed to be simple.

...And fun.

Not filled with unnecessary complications, tears and sadness and maybe anger.
But tell me, who in this world doesnt have to deal with all these shiz? In fact, all of us!
Why?

Why we chose to be sad rather than to feel happy?
Why we chose to fight and argue rather than singing smiling laughing together?
Why we chose to bomb and kill each other rather than holding hands?
Why we chose to cry rather than laughing?
Why we chose blues rather than rainbows?

But oh well... Maybe thats just us being human.

I sometimes dream to be a 5 year old again.
Or one of those hippies from the 70s.
I want to live in a technicolor world.
How I wish.

Merak

Back from outer space.

2009-11-10T11:28:00.000-08:00

(Not so) quick updates of my life:

Im on my 2 months holiday

My finals were, so so, okay la kot. I think i did alrite. hehe.

went makan makan with em after last paper;Zety and Hana
(not in pic: Ally)

So, yea baby, 1 more sem to go and im done with my diploma. And yet, I still cant decide what im gonna major in and whatnots. God help me!

I just got back from Phuket.

....and I was there with my brother, just him. Kinda boring, maybe because we're different. But I had a good time there.

Its great to know other places,
know other cultures,
the food,
meet new people,
have this tourist-to-tourist conversations(eceyh),
tell them ur name is Elspeth, and hear them reply, "nice name!"

And I just found out that French people are very friendly. And nice, too.

Julien and Lamo(sp?), I hope you guys had a blast at Koh Phi Phi.

Phuket was nice and all but I kinda hate Patong beach. Okay, not the beach but that area. Prostitutes are everywhere! And most guys are with one. Geli okay. And they're not even pretty, yang tua gayot pun ada, yang trans tp halkum besar nak mampus pun ramai. U get the picture rite? So, yea, a pretty horror sight, for me.

the trans there. told you horror gila!

and ni tepi jalan okay. pole dancing smua ada.

We met this pakcik, Pakcik Ibrahim. Baik sangat, he gave us a tour around Phuket and we went to this viewpoint, yang blh nampak the beaches macam Alif Lam Lam Ha skali dgn tanda atas. Cantik. Sangat. Masha Allah.

idk if u guys can see from this angle, but ni lah yang i ckp tu.

hurm banyak lagi nak tulis actually but tetiba ja blank. So till next time, take care all!

Merak
p/s: I wish I can write something deep rather than something like this. :( like wth who wants to know my life updates. bukannya famous pun. haihhhhh.

happy bithdayyy me??

2009-10-14T20:32:00.000-07:00

hey you alls dekat luar sana,hari tu kan birthday i ,wish la i happy birthday cepat,belated pun jadi la..haha.ON 11th oct im officially 20.no moreeee teeenn.Im now a big girl,so have to start act like one which is so NOT ME.

So as for last year,my friend surprised me,my college friends,they came around 1 plus am in front of my house,brought cake with candles where at first they started off their plan by telling me that one of them wanted to borrow my book.I was confused because my friend,aiman who wanted to borrow the book is usually not like that,i mean come on they are not book worms or book orientated people ,i was confused and thought to my self `eh sejak bila dia ni berubah kan` but iye kan aje la.But tadaaaaaaaaa they surprised me.I nearly criedd.tsk tsk.

I thought this year no more surprise for me,as my sis`s bf said that `every year nak surprise bole mati sakit jantung`.So i did not expect anything from them and my bf.
The night before my birthday i was taking care of my darling eldest sister who was not well.As for my other two sisters,my sister munira told me that shes going to sleep early cause she wass dead tired due to the journey from the north,and my other sister told me that she wanted to go cyber cafe for gaming session with her bf and my cousin.I was a bit upset cause they didnt want to be with me during my birthday eve.ish ish.

My bf told me a day before that he will going to take me out for supper,just the two of us,during my birthday eve.Change of plan,as our friend jeje wanted to follow us because my bf told me that she had a big fight with the boyf.We were on our way to The Curve when merak texted wanted to meet me before my birthday so i went to seee herrr for like less than 3 minutes?

As we were about to reach the curve,sara`s car was just right behind me.Oh have i ever told u guys that our birth date fall on the same date?I know something is not right somewheere as amir told me that sara went to watch movie with bidin,the bf.So i thought just a coincidence la kan.At 11 plus my bro msg me `happy birthday naz,sorry tak dapat datang`.HAHAHA.I smell something fishy here.I know my sister and her bf were at the curve.but when i arrived the whole group was thereee!!wowww!best gilaaa..They were,fahizaaagghhh,illi,kay,sepet,izmir,fahmi,my sister,her bf and my cousin.I celebrated my birthday that night with saraaa=))

It was the best birthday i ever had,as it was my first time celebrated it with my boyfie!=)The other surprise that i received was,my boyf gave me nokia 5800 as my birthday preseent,sseee how could i not love you,you annoying boy!!!!!it wasss a pleasant surprisssseeeee!!

the birthday cake*happy birthday naz and sara=)

yang you lookk so cute,one of my favourite pictur.i love you

sayang semangat tepuk tangan,mcam budak kecik punya birthday dah.ahhaa

will you still love me if i look likeeee thisssss--->

the girls and the cake=)

the birthday present=)when i was opening the box i couldnt find the phone and i thought that my boyfie belikan i charger je.hahaa

the birthday girls and the penyibuks=p

first time kut tengok sara ayu fahizah sopan.wakakakaka
strike that sexy poseee!ngeheheh

the ladiesss

illi and fahizah.Illi looks soo hot that nite

the sister and the boyf

the cousin!

the people who made it happen=)love you guys!

signing off,
sepet!

Sigh

2009-09-29T09:53:00.000-07:00

Something's missing.

I can't seem to find that missing piece of my life, maybe I lost it, along the way.

Gotta find it.
Gotta find it back.

Merak.

p/s: I atau sepet ada kenal anyone from Europe ke? Asal google full url, letak je la kat address box :)
Do say hi, teringin nak Eurotrip. HA.

hari raya datang lagi(THIS IS SEPET)

2009-09-29T04:29:00.000-07:00

Hello people.
Selaamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Dan Batin people.I think it is still not to late to wish you guys,ye lah raya kan sebulan.This year i think my raya is more fun,minus all the sad parts which,i could not beraya with my mum and this is my second year celebrating raya without her,my dad was busy raya-ing with the other side*i hate it*.I only celebrate raya for like less than 10 minutes with him tu pun because salam raya.Then we off to Kg pandan to celebrate it with my grandmother(my mums` side).I spend most of the time celebrating my first day of raya in Bukit Beruntung,my aunty`s house.

The best part is the- duit- rayaaa- giving time.Haha!This year collection is very satisfying.This year all my aunties and uncles bermurah hati sangat-sangat.Hehe.

We formed a group of two out of all my cousins who came then we played charade,karaoke competiton and pictionary.For charade and karaoke both my team won without main tipu ..Eh wait,charade game,draw,2-2 team pun menang.We `THE POYOS` team lost to the `KECOH` punya team masa pictionary punya game.

But a bit sad lah because some of my aunties and uncles and also cousins could not join the fun as they raya dekat penang.Its okay next year make sure all of us gather in one place okay??!My first sister only join us on the second day of raya because she and her husband were in singapore,the husbands` side.

*incomplete*

We are sisters!My first sister is not in the picture=(

my brother and my eldest sister(mom to be=) )

It was abang shem`s birthday during the third syawal,so we clebrated it at his open house,happy birthday!

The colgate smile*his advert was on air when we was gathered at kakak`s house,we were shouting and screaming his name but sadly he was out with my cousin*

He said*you guess it right,good job*

Guess what is this??Its mid night people and we guessed it right!sempoi!

*alamak how to draw eject eh???* he drew the eject(sounds like thingy) sign and they guessed it right REJECT!Good job abg shem!

The losing team.We are THE POYOS!

THE WINNING TEAM!the KECOHS!

singing time=)

we won!!!!
the-after- tired -singing faces.hehe

say hello ultraman!

the boys singing session

charade!thinking hard huh???

we won like AGAIN???

UUU soo nice!

Enjoy the picture,its quite lot of pictures posted but heck i hope u guys enjoy it.hehehhe.so once again,

SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN,PEOPLE=)FORGIVE ME FOR ANY OF MY WRONGDOINGS DIRECT OR INDERECTLY

YOURS TRULY,,

p/s:haha.i da maafkan dosa-dosa korang dekat i *cherhh poyoo*,so korang maaf kan lah i okay??hehhe

My Hari Raya entry(this is not sepet)

2009-09-25T07:13:00.000-07:00

(dalam kurungan tu saja je warning to those who wanna read sepet's but x get to sebab dia malas update hoho. Dun wan u guys to read this entry and hampa when tengok kat bawah, Merak.)

Salam to all.

I guess I'm not THAT late to wish you all Happy Eid Mubarak and maaf zahir batin. Raya satu bulan kan kan?

So, dgn itu, saya ingin meminta maaf dari hujung rambut ke hujung kaki to those ppl yang berkaitan, 0-0 eyyy? Hehe.

My hari raya was a blast, the food and kueh raya were great, the people were even better! :D Love this raya!

....... and I guess Ive gained a few kgs already(boo hoo hoo T__T), thanks to all the nasi dagang, and those good good stuff!

Before raya

spent the last day of puasa with my Booooo.

Gambar raya

with Ma on pagi raya.

I just have to put this pic up! My nenek so comel :)

With him on 2nd raya.

After raya at his friend's hse, we went to the beach dgn tujuan membeli aiskrim arnab ttp lupa sesudah sampai disana T_T. Apakan daya.

cun tak? hehe

Trip to Kemaman, 10th monthsary and random random stuff.

teman nana amik her stuff.

blanja him makan the famous stuff crab!!!

makan makan, picnic at nik's new house :D

disudahi dgn makan2 at pasar mlm chukai.

First of all thanks guys for the surprise! Really appreciate it :')

I went to Kemaman with Nana as planned. Sampai je sana, of course, we went to Hai Peng for our caffeine fix. And as I stepped in the kopitiam, my bf was there! Dia buat surprise for our 10 months :) Memang terkejut beruk lah kan I. Patutlah tak reply my msgs. Em girls were laughing at my 'terkejut beruk' face. LOL. Too bad he had to balik KT that day jugak :(

Anyway, thankssssssssss!

The trip was awesome, we went to Tong Juan, to tapau my fav stuffed crabs for my bf, his first stuffed crab. Best kan? Then went to Nicko's beautiful-wonderful-gorgeousful-awesomeful house. Lawa ohhh rumah u nicko! And nice nasi dagang.

Thankssssssssssss!

The night pulak we went to Dont Tell Mama and pasar malam(i was craving for nasi air;macam mihun sup tu tapi ganti mihun tu dgn bubur).

The next day, gerak to KT balik with nana and my bf picked me up at nana's house. Went lunch together gether :)

mine :) was craving for this after watching Garfield 2 on RTM2.

his mac n cheese: lepas geram after makanan
apatah kat pizahut tu mcm taik.

thank you youuuu :D xoxo

Kesimpulannya it was a great raya for me. Going back to kl tmrw *sobs*. This is my very first raya with my boyfriend, and it was special, indeed. Met the family, they were lovely and friendly. Thanks :)

Ampun dan maaf dipinta, my last pic blur sbb kalau tak kantoi besar besaran the extra pounds I gained. haha. ceh.

Haha gila panjang entry, lepas geram berapa hari dah tak blog.

Have a great raya everyone!
Merak

p/s: As usual, more pix @my flickr.

Things I love as a kid #2

2009-09-18T08:09:00.000-07:00

Step aside Counter Strike,

THIS IS THE SHIZZNIT!

Siapa yang tak pernah main pistol ni dulu? Memang femes lah.

Ada dua jenis, yang murah mcm kat atas tu(i punya yg ni, masa tu kecik lagi, so pendapatan pun ciput jua T__T) and yang mahal skit, bullet kaler putih mcm plastic tu.

I used to cycle to mini mart UN REGAL(nama kedai tu) yang sangatlah jauh dari rumah tanpa pengetahuan parents(sbb kalau diorang tahu, mmg tak lepas ah jack) just untuk beli ni. Ingat lagi, masa tu bulan puasa, so malam2 lepas berbuka, masa org org besar pegi terawih, kitorang main tembak2 dgn anak2 jiran yang lain. We were divided into 2 groups, and mcm cs lah, sape yg gang dia yg kena tembak dulu, kalah. Limit kawasan? No limit! So kadang2 tu macam nak gila jugak lah nak menang kan..

Tapi tetap gigih, sbb nak menang. Memang susahla nak describe mcmana rasa nak menang kan. Sbb masa main tu punyalah neves takut pusing mana2, kena tembak, sajeeee je. So sepangjang game ni, bermillion million lemon butterflies menari nari dlm perut. Game ni biasanya dimain oleh kanak2 yang tak terlalu tua, tapi tak terlalu kecik(mcm lagu britney). Sebab yang tua, buat apa main, shoh shoh gi terawih tu! Yang kecik pulak taleh main nanti sesat, susahkan orang. So yang kecik duduk diam2 main tanglung dpn rumah je. Sienz. :P

Alahai rindunya :'(

Budak budak skarang dah tak main ni kan? Sayangnya..

Merak
p/s: Dah berada di kampung, seronaknyaaaa!

Things I love as a kid #1

2009-09-14T11:26:00.000-07:00

Korang ingat tak dulu dulu, before Power Rangers, ada 3 sentai dari Jepun yang memang famous dikalangan rakan sebaya? The in thing masa tu lah. Like, "oh kau tak tgk eh flashman/maskman/jetman smlm? Gila tak cool". Haha, ok contoh je. Dorang ni way before Power Rangers. Kira mcm otai sentai la. I still remember watching them religiously, before main kat luar petang petang. Those yang 18-20s this year tau la kott.

First one, Flashman!

Okay rindu gler cite ni bila tgk video kat atas. Mmg one episode pun tak miss dulu. Tapi compared to the other two, yang ni pelakon2 dia tak hensem and lawa sangat lah. haha. But I still remember masa kecik dulu rasa mcm ranger biru tu hensem, skarang bila tgk balik #^$#whatwasithinking%@. Mcm bapuk pun ada. Tapi cite best, so that makes up for that. Tp benci bila dorang pakai yang senapang besar tu je orang jahat dah kalah. Me want robot!

Next, Jetman!

Yang ni mcm maju sikit lah ada jet jet terbang smua. And the girls cam gila comel+cun. Dulu mimpi nak jadi mcm blue swallow tu sampai potong rambut mcm tu jugak how pathetic haha T___T And they had the best opening song ever! Jetto jetto jettomannnnnnnnnnn~(sampai sini je yang tau nyanyi)

Last but not least, Maskman!

Hehe okay tadi tgk balik ni gila gross start start cite tunjuk badan ketul2 minyak macam tu. Tapi dimaafkan sbb the girls gila lawa. haha. Aura powarrrr!

OMG RINDU GILA OK TGK SMUA NI!
watching these videos really brings back memories. thanks for those who uploaded these. jasamu dikenang.

Korang tgk tak cite cite ni dulu? Or dah tak ingat?

Merak

The good old days.

2009-09-12T13:27:00.000-07:00

Kat luar hujan lebat. Lebat sangat. Dengan kilat sabung menyabung, memang scary. Nak tutup tingkap, tapi takut. So baring diam diam atas katil saja yang mampu dibuat.

Tadi kan, masa godek godek folders dalam computer ni, terjumpa gambar masa kecik kecik dulu. Rindunya.

Rindu how things were simpler back in the days. Less complicated. Less drama. More fun.

Masa kecik, tade la ramai sgt kawan, but I still remember them la.. Ihan, Syazwan and Syazwani. I wonder if they still remember me. Masa kat Lot 144 pulak, my friends are Aima, Najwa, the twins, Sharon(sp?), Hadi, and Akim(dia ni not so much masa kecik sbb blagak mcm dah besar tak main dgn group kitorang). Sorry if I miss a name.

Birthday Party Aedi: Dia muka yang paling nerd prasan bagus tu.
Cuba teka mana satu merak. hahah.

But my ultimate BFF is my cousin, Rosdiana. Shes studying in UKM Bangi now. Dulu, pantang je jumpa during raya or holidays, memang we were inseparable, doing all things together. We just clicked. Maybe because we both dont have a sister and both pun desperately want one kot?

Kan da cakap? :')

Life was SO much fun at that time. I miss em games, ting ting lah, kapten tikus lah, ice water, tang nusuk(nyorok nyorok), guli, galah panjang, piramid selipar, adventures la. Banyak lg. But that 'fun' seems to vanished and world doesnt seem exciting anymore the minute we decide that we are too old for those stuff.

For some, they have their new 'fun', clubbing ke apa2 jelah, things teenagers do now. As for the others(...and me), life is boring and the only thing they can do is just reminisce the past.

Raya, toksah nak ckp lah, seronok gila! It was magical! Semua pun exciting je. Tengok mercun and bunga api pun dgn penuh minat. Skarang? Harapan. Tadi buat biskut raya pun takde feeling raya T__T

Raya '95: Barisan hadapan:Merak, Aedi, Rosdiana.
Barisan belakang: Raimi, Ramzi

Ahhhhh rindunyaaa!

Hujan dah berenti. Nak gi tutup tingkap.

Chalo,
Merak

p/s: childhood friends, i miss.

bagai kacang lupakan kulit?

2009-09-08T08:36:00.000-07:00

Bagai kacang lupa kan kulit.Im damn sure you guys know what it means right??The person who would totally forget you after everything you have done for him or her,all the good deeds,all the things u guys have been through together. And have you guys ever came across this situation or happen to know friends or person like such???

I did.In my case,my friend,who is happen to be merak`s friend as well.she totally left us behind after she found her new clique,new boyfriend and new social life.The story started when this girl,shall remain anonymous,okay lah i address her as Y lah k.so this particular girl came from somewhere(anonymous as well) and i knew her through my friend(someone).She was nice,friendly,easy to get along with as she`s also `gila-gila` type like us,so we can joke around and all lah.We used to hang out a lott!Share secrets,do stupid stuff,say stupid things,sleepover,etc.

She registered in B college and started to make new friends but our relationship was still the same la back then.We still hang out but not as much as before.Now her crowd is bigger and we are like aliens to each other.She didnt contact us anymore and even if someone(referring to her old friends) contact her,she was like `oh sorry im busy`.Pasal message toksah cakap la,memang kalau 10 kali hantar pun takkan reply.She likes to use her mum as an excuse,jaga her mum lah,it saddens me when i was so down(break up time),she promised to hang out together so that she could cheer me up but AGAIN she used her mum as an excuse,she said she cannot go out at night.And note that,bukan i je yang kena even her other friends okay.But tak apa lah,i was so hurt and terasa gila.Tapi nasib baik merak tak mungkir janji kan?heheh.hey girl,if you tak nak keluar dengan ur so-not-cool punya friends its okay k?just tell us sraight to the point jangan pusing2 cakap pasal your mum..It got me thinking when i saw her pictures in fb and heard from others,she goes party all night long even weekends(usually she stays with her mum on weekends kan) and hang out with her friends except us.And as merak would say ~babe tolong lah faham k,kita tak cool mcm dorang!~hahahahahahhahh!So now, we think that she was actually using us to get to know people last time when she first arrived here as later she will continue her study in kl kan,so sadd kannn??It is our assumption la.Wallahualam.

And to you:Yeah i know you are happy the way you are now,but please remember that even if u have ur boyfriend,ur cool friends,friendship is to be kept even when u find another crowd of friends.Just so u know,we used to care but now?not anymore.Go and have fun,we wish you all the best!

sepet

Girl I Know

2009-09-06T11:57:00.000-07:00

First and foremost, I'm not the type of person who easily hate someone, UNLESS that someone did something bad to me, SO BAD, that I hate that someone.

Today, I'm gonna write about that someone.

Have you ever come across someone who appears to be an angel, but underneath those white wings and shiny halo, evil thorns and trident hidden? Okay, maybe I'm just exaggerating bout the thorns and all, but that's basically how I feel bout her. A fake. A plastic. A hypocrite. A bitch.

She did something to me that I wont forget forever but its best not to talk bout it here. But since that incident, sorry to say, I loathe you, woman.

And bukan I je yang penah kena dgn dia ni, a few gak la. Ish.

Maybe some would wonder why do I hate her so much? Lets just say I hate it when someone break my trust and make up stories about me to make herself look good. Who wouldn't? She appears to be this little miss sunshine in front of everyone, then bitch bout some behind their backs, again, to make herself look good and to up herself la kot. Tolonglah, perempuan, semua org tau kot pasal kau? The worst part is, I treated her like a close friend dulu, but she went telling everyone shits about me. Until now kot? From what I heard-lah.

Sakit hati kan bila orang tu depan kita bukan main baik apa semua, rupanya kat blakang kutuk kaw kaw.$^#%*&#^(&)(^*)&%^#%@

Dahlah infront of guys suka tergedik2, okay we all know your self confidence is very high, ~~and now pun dah stylo mylo(ye keee?) sejak pandai online shopping tak macam dulu da~~, but perlu ke acting like that. Look so fake okay. Trying too hard to be loved by all the guys. Uwekk.

Tolong jangan murah sgt boleh tak?

When infront of girls serious smacam sampai ppl joking2 pun, she was like "I tak suka la u acting gedik gedik like a bitch macamni?" Wth woman. Siapa yang mcm tu sebenarnya? Well that one she didnt said to me la. To my other friend. Kesian dia. Sampai today ingat haha. ;)

And just a friendly reminder, you dun have to act as if you're this poised, baik dan sopan santun lady cuz we all know you're not and what you do behind your back, all those flirting and stuff.

Flirting with guys lentok lentok bahu smua eventho she already has a bf, and one of that guys happened to be my friend's bf and I know him. Well, tell me now, what kind of a girl is that?

I know its none of my business but I cant tolerate with such level of hypocrisy(To say i cant give in to hypocrisy at all will be a lie, cuz we are all hypocrites at certain times, for certain occasions, even yours truly). Maybe if she never hv any problem with me, I wont even bother but thats the thing, orang cakap, bila dah benci tu, benci.

And baguslah if bulan puasa ni kau dah insaf, tak youknowwhat dah kan?

I'm not trying to embarrass her or anything as I don't think anyone will know who is this girl I'm talking about or at least could have guess who she is pun. Let's just say, she's just a girl I know.

And to you, if youre reading this, I know just EVERYTHING that you've said about me. Ive never said anything bad about you to anyone(okay exceptions, sepet and close friend), but I just want you to wake up and stop all the acting and the faking. You're trying WAY too hard, girl. And if I did hurt you with my words here, sempena bulan Ramadhan yang mulia ni, AMPUNNNN!

hehe. panjangnya.

Merak.

p/s: anyone else pernah kena macamni?

ramadhan

2009-09-04T08:21:00.000-07:00

I was on my way to college when merak texted me this

merak:im thinking of doing my own blog.what do you think?and no,am serious tak perli you ke apa.

me:haha.ala jangan lah,okay2 i update,promise lepas i balik buka k?

merak:tak lah ni serious ni.you dah berzaman tak upload,kesian dekat orang2 yang nak bace you post tau,asyik2 i je yang post(hahha,ada ke orang nak bace apa i post)

me;ye ye,promise,ye la tak pe lah kalau u tak nak share blog dengan i

merak:ala merajuk pulak u ni.hahah

to you merak:you BITCH!hahahaha.pandai ugut orang kan

Am currently at U-ONe(futsal place),waiting for my brother and boyfriend to finish playing futsal.Its my first time watching my boyfriend playing it,so,in a way im kind of excited.hehe.But its kind of boring,i ve gone cuckooo!

Now you know how cuckoo i have become.

Just now i had makan-makan with my college friends(picture will be upload later as i did not bring camera and im so lazy to take out my camera phone).We berbuka at this place named PAN CAKE HOUSE (it is not nice at alll!)seriously.We even had another dinner in mc d after that.that explain how bad the food was.

After berbuka,we went to ASIA cafe TO PLAY POOL.I lost with rashaad by one ball,note that,one ball ONLY!Consider okay la for someone who is noob at this game kan.!

And oh,i saw my primary school friend,Liyana,she was with her boyfriend,she is still pretty as before!

I`ve bought my baju raya!Yeay for me!White kebaya,as rashaad would say,so suci!HEHEEH!I cant wait for raya but i dont want ramadhan to end.I hope this raya would not be as sad as before,i want it to be like how it was few years back when mama was still around,oh my how i miss my life back then.

I`ll upload pictures later.Till then,bye

p/s:for the guy who claims that he did not read my blog at all and thinks that he is all that and so-oh-im-so-fucking-hot,i hate you,that goes without saying.I bet now you are reading my blog,arent you???Stop pretending laa.I know you and your friends were the one who wrote stupid fuck in our chat box.

yours truly,
sepet

Of things I do today

2009-09-03T05:38:00.000-07:00

Hellew!

Kesian this blog, abandoned by the mommies. Sorry blog.

As I'm at my grandma's place in KT, I cant find any reason not to update this blog, eventho I did managed to procrastine for 2 days(hahaah, champ dow kalau bab procrastinate ni).

Imagine this, Im on holiday, got nothing to do, I cant eat, no astro, so what better way to kill the time than surfing the net?

few things i found while doing that

#1 SHOELUST
the first thing came from my mouth was OMG!OMG!OMG!. Im a sucker for beautiful, heavenly looking shoes and I practically drool when scrolling down the site(okayyy. nottttt a pretty sight).

#2 I bought TWO Mario Puzos for rm10.
Now beat that! Hehe. But secondhand-lah. Fools Die and The Last Don, anyone read those already? Chun tak chun? I still havent get the chance to read em YET(...despite the fact that I have nothing else to do here other than online and tv. Not in reading mode yet. Heh heh)

#3 I went to TongueInChic just now. Guess what I've found???

jeng

jeng

jeng

my face look like overbaked apom

hhahaha. AMIK KAU! I looked so fugly. I was so tired+lapar+listening-to-slow-music, hence the burukface. whatevs la kan. The pic was taken recently by TongueInChic's girl(okay, gotta check the card now!) at The No Plastic Bag Bazaar. For other pix, head on to their gallery. Anyway, thanks to Mr. Boyfriend and Nana for teman-ing me there! It was a blast and me, myself did a lil shopping(little je cuz he stopped me T____T). The outcome: Not bad, kachings did say hello to my pocket. Ngehs.

okay da off topic.

#4 I have talent in Neopets. But sucks in FB games.
So sad okay. Even. pet. society. gives. me. headache. pathetic. aeti. pathetic.

Okay 4 cukup for now. I planned to blog about what I had for buka puasa during my stay in KT, but maybe next time. Ma, nana, watch out! Muahahahahahah.

Bye, nak tgk gadis melayu kat tv9(sbenanya nak tgk that hot chic yang gbr dia tersebar kat internet tu. hot sial dia!)

Merak

p/s: went to pasar payang yesterday, no one wear the mask. why no one gives a damn bout H1N1? But oh well.... maybe I'm just being hypochondriac(tak penah penah).

The NO Plastic Bag Bazaar Tmrw!

2009-08-30T13:10:00.000-07:00

Hey there!

I'll be joining The No Plastic Bag Bazaar tmrw from 12pm-6pm, selling off my junks, hehe.
But other than that(kalau tu je gila boring nak mampus) there will be another approx 70 vendors selling gorgeous stuff not forgetting performances n stuff. My stall(?) will be 2nd from the stage and 2nd row from left. So do drop by and say hi! :DD

Below is all the infos on the event

So be there, or be square!(cherhhh..)

Merak

Of em historical places, and random stuff.

2009-08-21T10:53:00.000-07:00

Heres to say hello!

Haha okay im just kiddin with my last post. And now I am in my post-exams mode!
so, WHEEEEEEEEEEE!

First of all, I have a few shoutouts;

#1 Selamat menyambut bulan Ramadhan al Mubarak. Semoga tahun ini lebih baik dan bermakna dari tahun tahun sebelumnya. Insya-Allah.
Harap dpt khatam dlm masa sebulan ni and tak hangat hangat tahi ayam je.

#2 To Faizal

Good luck for your last paper tmrw! I know you can do it sweetheart! Oh and remember your promise to me ;)

Btw, last 20th August was a very very very special day, but I x get to blog on that day so here goes:

Happy Birthday syg,
I hope all your wishes come true(including the one you told me, of course!),
And may Allah SWT bless you,
I may not be as sweet as you are,
And I may be a pain in the ass sometimes.
But I love you so much, I think you already know that.
Im sorry I cant be there with you on your day,
But I hope you felt my presence,
Like how youre always with me, in my heart,
Every second and every heartbeat.

Happy 20th Birthday, Tengku Ahmad Faizal.
From your girlfriend, Aeti Amira.

#3 Okay this is not really a shout out but who cares :P Last weekend, right before my exam week, my dearest mom planned a trip to Malacca. Saja jalan jalan. Hehe. Heres a few snaps:

It was hot, sweaty and now gosh I have that 'perfect' tan. Arghhhhhh. Someone pass me fair and lovely pronto!

We wanted to try the famous chicken rice ball and satay celup but too badd we x found the halal ones. But then we headed to Umbai. Ikan bakar feasttttttttttttt! Sotong bakar, butter fried prawn, siakap 3 rasa, pari bakar - what else could you ask for? Parameswara Ikan Bakar terbaekk. While we were enjoying the GREAT food, Siti and Misai came with their ferrari. Kecoh satu kedai! I turned to have a look at them but I guess the food was too good, I didnt give second look at the power couple. Aha.

Other than that, we spent our time touring the museums, went on double decker bus trip, the venice-like(eceycey) cruise and shopping.

All in all it was a great trip. Everything was great but my very tanned skin. Sepet commented, "Hitam". Okayyyyyyyyyyyyyy pendek and pedas. Bitch. Haha.

Speaking of Miss Sepet, Im going to teman her go buy her kebaya for raya. Semangat hang noooooo.

And going to meet Awie and Nana for some catching up.

Till I blog again,
Merak.

p/s: I tanak blog hari tu bukan nak lari dari ceti OK! hahaha. you ah sampai tuka no bagai. dun worry, I still love u even if u tgh lari dari ceti.

Heres to say goodbye.

2009-08-18T10:43:00.000-07:00

I'm BLACK OUT, again.

Im tired.
I know I always say that. But I really am tired, exhausted.
There are things in my mind,
That may made me go wonka.

Outside the house, drama. Please korang, tanak drama2 ni, ms. A, forgive her will you. I know youre mad at her but I dont like seeing my friends like this. Nak macam dulu2.

Inside the house, more or less the same. Its like 1997-2005 in rewind.

Dah lah, aku penat penat penat tau tak.
Ni post terakhir aku. Its a hard decision. I wont have any outlet anymore, I have x in touch with anyone on the internet. But to hell with that.

Ive no mood dah. No mood for everything.
Thanks sbb jadi tempat luahan hati perasaan semua slama ni.

Bye everyone, bye blog.

Merak

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dumb dumb

2009-08-17T06:48:00.000-07:00

Not going to talk about anything else,except for why am i feeling so stupid?why ohhhh why.I feel so down.Again,i repeat the same mistake,again?what the hell.I prayed hard to achieve what i want,still praying will always pray,i work my ass off for it but never get what i want.I dont know where did i go wrong.Why cant i be like anybody else,get what the want,what they wished for,everytime....And me?Why my life turned out this way?Everything happens for a reason they say?Now i dont see the reason.I still figuring it out..I kept asking the question,why me?Why when i wanted that thing soo badly i couldnt get.I couldnt lead a happy life.Couldnt make my dad proud of me.Now tell me whats the reason?Why my life is so unfair.I seriously feel like giving up.seriously.If it is not because of Islam,and my love towards Allah,i would have been 6th feet under.Even they say `okay lah tu,1 je kot?`,i know they are just saying that to make me feel good.And friends, thanks a lot,i know i have you guys evrytime im in need of advise fun and everything,but sorry,this time the pain of failure did not go away,i didnt feel any better.Its time to think now `where did i go wrong?`

Why does my life has to be so unfair.tell me where did i go wrong.Oh please,i cant handle failure.I had enough.I faced it twice.I faced lost of my loved ones.I lost my friends.I cant even prove to my late mum that i can get straight A`s.Not again,now,not again.I dont wantt to gooo onn anymore..God,have mercy on me,please,i love you,and will always do.Give me,once a happiness,the feel of being success like old time.Give me a taste of happiness and success.Right now i want to prove to my dad.Let me feell the presence of my mum again,so i can get her spirit,feeling the whisper of her voice telling me,whispering to me all the encouraging words,recite prayer for me.God hear me out,please,for once and all,give me my life back pleaseeeeee???=`((!!

yours truly,sepet.

*this pain right here,it wont go away,Oh God,please?

Guess whos back? Back again.

2009-08-12T11:10:00.000-07:00

Hellewwwwww all!

Its been hectic! Finally Ive finished all the assignments and works and whatnots. So yeay, I can blog again!

Oh first of all, before I start babbling bout other stuff, Ive a shout out for my brother Aedi,

20 going on 21, single and available(the left one, of course :P)

KING CONGRATSSSSSSS! He got his BEng/MEng (Honours) Mechanical Engineering(betul ke ni, I just copied from the booklet hehe) last month and the event was held at Palace of the Golden Horses. Cepat2 sambung master or keje so you can support your wonderful sister haha. When is mineeee? I wanna graduate jugakk.

moving on......benci ckp pasal dia lama2 haha. jk jk.

My boyf came last weekend and boy, the two days were like food fest to me! Makan-makan-makan. I think I gained a few kgs(kgs okay, not pounds!). First Johnny's, then the XXL Crispy Chicken tu one each(tamak siall -_-").. Then the next day, we woke up late, my mom asked us to go eat the rotis for breakfast, I had a gigantic raisin danish and 2 chikin rolls for him. ANDD just minutes after that, my mom finished cooking and suruh kitorang lunch trus. Gila. Haha tak gila mana la kan sebab both of us pun makan banyak siap tambah lagi.

After that we're off to Pavilion, shopping. I LOVE SHOPPING WITH HIM :D hehe. But I failed in hasut-ing him to buy that pair of grey shoes. Sayang je. Nanti next time you nak beli dah tade baru padan muka!

And guess what we did next? EAT, again! We had those heavenly little cup-cheese-cakes called u-hu-hu(???) at The Loaf. At first comel je I bought 3. Bajet hi tea la kan. hahahaahhaah. Hurm I guess its hard for us to lie to our own self, "who am i kidding??" popped in my mind as Im eating the second cake. I stood up, marched to the counter and bought a whole box of these u hu hus. Hey dont blame me okay! Blame those little devils for being sooooo sinfully delicious. These are my 2 absolute favourites:

Blueberry Treasures

Glitzy Strawberries
pics credit to: The Loaf

Okay, then we went jalan jalan. A few metres and 2 budak-kutu-mabuk-siang-hari later, we found ourselves in Nandos, ordering the 1/4 quarter chikin with 2 sidelines each! Gila.

6th shot at him eating: 'annoyed' written all over his face.
...waittt seminit, hes trying to look macho!(baru ingat)

Its funny how my tummy reacts when hes with me. Merak, who usually had only one meal a day can survive a 7(or more)-course buffet, providing Faizal's here! Maybe its those little butterflies in my stomach working a tad too hard when hes near me. HAH.

But now hes back in Penang, Im back to my 1-meal-a-day diet. WEHH NO, Im not trying to be skinny ke apa its just I dun have the time to makan. Seriously. When I have time, I do eat a lot. Like, A LOT. Contohnya, I just finished a bittersweet chocolate bar while lying on my bed typing this.

Sweetheart, I mish u oledi. How ahhh?

Haha okayyyyyyyyy.

Oh ya, remember last week I did mention bout my PR campaign, I LOVE EXOTIC ANIMALS? Well, it was great! We had a lot of fun, everything when smoothly, and most importantly we got full mark for this assignment YAY!

l-r:Tan, Merak, Saq, Jaja, Mel, Imara, Nad

And can you actually believe I touched and played with a snake. I handled it like a pro. Eceyh belagak. Ular kecik, blh ah ckp kan. Bak dtg ular kaler kuning yang besar tu tgk ade bran tade bran?

ppl, meet boy.

Ada kot.

Haha okayh lew nak titew dulew, kitew ngantowk sgt sgt larhhh. SOMEBODY PLS SHOOT ME ALREADY!

Merak

p/s: Sepet, get well soon, xoxo.

BLACK OUT

2009-08-02T13:39:00.000-07:00

I'm not exaggerating.

I'm sooo tired right now. Okay, it is my fault to do all my assignments sooo last minute but it was due to certain circumstances.

Assignments Checklist
Journalism final project, check.
PR Campaign, check.
HTMLs and edited photos for Intro to MM, check.
Communication Research, almost done, meeting em girls tmrw.
Newswriting, havent started a thing yet. Will do asap.

Yeay, that's 80% done!

Okay, enough being positive. Bukak blogger pagi-pagi nih(wey, right now is 4:44am, gila suwey number!) ada tujuan sebenarnya. Which is NAK LEPAS GERAM. (boyf aka bff aka bitching partner, where art thou??)

Okay theres this one girl, i'll name her X, she came up to me nak satu group, and she said she has everything for the assignment, so since I've no groupmates yet, chun la kan. Then I tak kesah sgt lah since she has EVERYTHING kan? I thought i have to send my articles je la (this assignment kena anta esok). Then tadi petang she said she doesnt have anything! WTF wey?? Tu pun after my other groupmate tanya. And she x even want to contribute at all! I did EVERYTHING. We have to make a newspaper, based on previous articles we wrote. My other groupmates just hantar their articles and the rest was done by yours truly and ni baru siap. Gila. Okay, I have no problems with my other groupmates but this X girl, sumpah panas. Memang tak ah aku nak letak nama kau kan. She keeps on saying cannot hantar because tade internet, go to effing CC la wey! This is group work, if its only you, I dont give a damn. And bila I sound suruh gi cc, she immediately tukar cerita kata her articles are with our lecturers. HELLO? KAU INGAT AKU BODOH KEEEEEEEEE? And plus, who in their right mind takde soft copies of their articles. Come on la. Dont take me for a fool okay. Okay MTV is not helping either, asyik pasang SOMEBODY CALL 911! T___T.
Nasib baik tetiba hitz.tv best.

And tmrw I need to go to college at 7am(because ya, i go with public transport and ampang-damansara sama dengan kemaman-dungun if u naik bas, hehe tetiba teringat wawa). I dont think im gonna sleep. haihhh esok mesti hyperactive ni!

Oh ya, ANNOUNCEMENT PEOPLE!

Please come to our I LOVE EXOTIC ANIMALS CAMPAIGN! (brought to you by Mel, Jaja, Imara, Saq, Tan and yours truly), there'll be lots of fun and expect some snake hugging, or kissing(?) and many more! And PLUS, I'll be collecting signs for EGG=LIFE petition by WWF to save our turtles. So yea, come come comeeeeeee!

(cherh macamlah you guys would go pun kannnn T____T)

Merak

P/S: Boyf, I want faris and the car's pic. Hopes he loves it!(Okay, ure tired of this ayat, surry)

2009-07-29T16:59:00.000-07:00

Hola! Buenas tardes! Como es usted?

Last week I went back to my hometown to see my loved ones. Balik sana boleh jadi princess kejap. Read:never-ending food, sleep like a baby with my grandma, manja2 with my aunty and of course layanan 1st class by him haha.

:-*

Baby, thanks a lot for that bouquet of roses surprise! Lets just say, im freaking surprised! And sorry I didnt buy you anything. But I have the biggest gift of all, kasih sayang. Eceycey. Haha.

And oh ya, my boyfriend sent me to the bus station, along with his little brother, the cutest budakkecik, Faris. He was very shy at first, tak kasi org pandang dia, but after that, we gt along very well kan kan kan kan. When I hold his hand and dukung him and let him sit on my lap, I felt that its as if, Im with akyl(theyre the same age). I really really really miss him. I then got very emotional about it but my boyfriend asked me to just sabar and hold it. Heres a few pics of Faris;

okay, i know, satu je, but hes too cute
he makes me look ugly in all pics
and thy shall not post ugly pics.

And this is the latest pic of Akyl I have;

akyl, kak rindu akyl..

Haih....

*crickets*

Tonnes of assignments really keep me busy busy busy. It's crazy!
Now I wish I can fastforward time for that phuket holiday. I need to unwind and relax for awhile!

Merak

I asked God to take away this horrendous feeling.

2009-07-22T05:38:00.000-07:00

What would you do when youre alone,
When youre on your own,
Breathing in the world of nothingness
Feeling so worthless, everything is useless.

Would you stay strong and put a smile,
Or succumbs to this painful feeling
cuz youre just fragile,
Im just a human being, im nothing special,
To feel this, maybe its natural.

The nights are eating me,
The days are burning me,
Oh Lord, save me,
From this nightmare youre giving me.

Merak.

i changed my mind

2009-07-20T04:26:00.000-07:00

Manchester United friendly match versus MALAYSIA was awsome.Malaysian team played well.And now after seeing them at BUKIT JALIL few days back i think i changed my mind,i go for Malaysian team la like this.3-2 babe!!!!Both goal was scored by Amri Yahyah if im not mistaken lah.But tonight got another game,we shall see la whether the manchester utd team kasi chance dekat malaysia last time or memang malaysia betul2 terror?Im not going for the second match since im broke and im still very tired .But all in one i had a good time.Sorry the pictures are not in sequence and the post is quite dull.Im not feeling well.I lost my voice after this match.I menjerit macam orang gila.I think only some people in Australia havent heard me properly=p

So,enjoice people.

yours truly.sepet

Malu bertanya, sesat jalan.

2009-07-18T21:23:00.000-07:00

Rasanya dah takleh pakai dah ayat tu, unless you want ppl to humiliate you, and bring you down. And think that youre stupid. How can someone CHANGED when all those "smarter" ppl tau bash orang je and not help that someone?

I know you guys memang lagi pandai bab agama2 ni kan, of course la since skolah agama, mmg sedikit sebanyak ada ilmu yg lagi banyak la kan tentang agama ni.

But how can you ppl just tau nak hentam or nak judge orang je? I thought u cant do that. Yes, u are smarter in this field but you have no rights to ridicule others yang okay obviously, not as smart as you guys. At least I x judge orang!

I remember I went to your school in 2006 for national debate competition, and I thot what a nice school and students pun mesti baik2 je kan but ya, little did i know yang your thinking is like that.(okay i did judge you guys a little, but in positive way okay. Eh sat, dats not judging, thats first impression)

Sigh.

If you want to change ppl, thats not the way, not helping at all.

You said that i used my nickname and put my url to reveal my identity for others to judge, gosh im really suprised okayyy. Im sorry i dont go under anon nickname then kutuk others, i dont think its ethical. To kutuk someone, that alone is not ethical, what more hiding behind anon nickname. At least I have the guts to be responsible of what Im going to say.

Haih... You ppl..

Well Im not gonna let that ruin my day, cuz everyone has their point of view, have their own thinking, what we do is each his/her own kan? But before u guys nak pk dalam2 lagi, im not mengamuk, just merely asking for explanation.

OKAY, gotta write essay for my assignment!

Toodles,
Merak

dont stop believing!

2009-07-17T12:10:00.000-07:00

In my years of living and years to come i would like to achieve things that i know i can and i know i will with effort courage and etc.

1.Graduate from ACCA, by hook or by crook,by 21

2.Be nice to mr.boyf(less sulking,be more human than a fierce tiger(haha!no?))

3.Get married with mr boyf(insyaallah) by 25 or 26

4.Start working by 22 or 23(so the sequence are graduate first then working then get married(yeay!gatal much huh..hahaha)

5.Go holiday with aeti (be it local or overseas,we are ready for the thrill,backpacking moh?(once i started working aa k?ahahaah)

6.Be friend and be nice with anybody and everybody and even those who hurt me including all my exes.no more fighting.past is past.life has to move on.btw i dont hold grudges to any of them and im happy for what they have today.Forgive and forget will be the new policy!And to those that i have hurt them in the past ,IM SORRY.

7.Go honeymoon in amsterdam

8.working in the UK or anywhere out of Malaysia

9.Buy swift once i started working

10.Buy bmw for my brother once i get rich(heheh!)

11.own a tax agent company

12.spend time with babah more often (rampas him from you-know-who) and give him monthly or weekly allowance even its just a small amount,its the thought that counts kan? once i started working

13.stay in overseas once me and future husband settle down(hehe=p)

14.Daily revision,no more last minute work(these days it doesnt work anymore,how sad)

15.buy a fully furnished penthouse(wow!gotta workkk reallll hard)

16.read yassin every thursday or everyday without miss(you know i miss you ma)

17.working part time if got spare time and go shopping!

18.Take a good care of babah and the family,help as much as i can within my capability,ability.

19.stop quarelling with mr boyf,show more love.hehe.be more matured.

20.belanja mr boyf lots of things bila banyak duit(sabar eh yang?)

21.not to stop loving my family bestfriends(bebe,merak!sha!) boyf and frieends even a second!

22.stop cursing and talking bad bout people.and to stop questioning others `lawa tak dia?`

23.to stop shisha(lamooo lagii.hehehe.skarang tak boleh lagi)

24.less facebook and less stalking people.improve self-esttem.

25.to not be so stubborn and be the one who says `im sorry,its my fault.!`.give and take!

and the list goes on and on.Pray for me!I will work hard to get what i want.I know what i want and i know i will strive it(Insyaallah)

SEPET

takde life dah ke?

2009-07-17T11:43:00.000-07:00

Yea.Like tottally obvious as stated above we dont have life like you guys did BUT we dont stalk people then tegur them rudely.Like wth?Kau jaga tepi kain sendiri,cermin dulu diri sendiri,and kalau dah bagus sangat pasal agama and whatsoever tegur dengan cara baik lah please?Dalam agama kita sendiri cakap kalau nak tegur cara elok kan?Kata mahir fasih sangat tentang benda2 ni takkan benda sesimple ni pun taleh buat.And selama aku hidup 19 tahun kat dunia ni tak pernak pulak aku tahu org yang mengaib kan orang lain dalam blog itu dapat pahala mungkin untuk nampakkan kau lebih baik kan?Tapi takpayah lah.Kami semua tahu kau ni baik sangat kan?Pergi sekolah agama semua.Aku pun pegi sekolah agama kot(bukan gebang) tapi berhati perut lah sikit kot kan?Im damn sure ur ustaz or ustazah or even both did not teach to twist people`s story kan and talk about people weakness publicly,yes?Could you tell them what did actually my friend said.She DID NOT SAID TAK SALAH BERPELUKAN!DIA CAKAP MANA ADA GAMBAR TU BERPELUKAN!!!!.Can u just get damn straight !!!!!!.And btw my friend didnt even hug him in the picture.I know my friend well and she damn well know whats dosa pahala haram and halal.We dont need more education at least from you.Our parents teached us well like ur parents did or maybe betterr lah kot(no offence as we did not aib kan org in public or blog,parents kami kata berdosa)!You have no right to judge both of them.U dont even know who my friend is.SALAM!

SESEPET!

Be nice, say hi.

2009-07-13T06:54:00.000-07:00

Its always great to make new friends :)

Ke........... mmg tade org baca blog ni? T_T
Haih mmg tade life btullah.

Hadapi dengan senyuman,
Merak

Random Post

2009-07-11T01:15:00.000-07:00

Hey its me again. Im bored. Sorry.

One of my fav songs back in high school.
The video is a bit creepy but the lyrics are beautiful, and no one can deny that.
Enjoy!

Merak

Saturday mode.

2009-07-10T22:49:00.000-07:00

I usually spend my Saturdays lying on my bed, doing nothing and just bermalas-malasan the whole day. And now I'm bermalas-malasan, still in last night's kaftan, listening to Alanis Morissette(sp?) so I guess today started off quite well. Texted him kejap just now, then he wanted to write notes and stuff so I decided not to kacau him. So baik lah you! I have to submit an article tmrw and I havent started a thing yet. EEEE I dont want to ruin my Saturday by talking bout assignments *delete memory pasal assignments*. Eceyh, alasan.

I cant wait for my sem to end. 6 more weeks to go! And then wheeeeeeeeeeeeee. :D

Cant wait cant wait cant wait!
I have sooo many things in my mind that Ive to hold for a while bcuz Ive been busy with assignments; redo research proposal according to Mr Faisal's format, Marketing assignment, PR campaign, articles and more articles. Eh eh *delete balik*

Tak sabar nak jumpa Mr Boyfriend and Wawa, sabar k, later I go visit you kat ~~Dung~~ Bandar Dungun. Hehe. Its been awhile dah kan, the last time we jumpa my hair still kontot!

Ohh okay Im not trying to be sooo heartless or anything but Im sick of MJ's songs on the radio AND tv. Dah dah lah.. Its good to remember him but dun la 24/7 oso have to be him. I think i hafal all his songs dah by now.

Btw if you need something to laugh at, click here. We had a big laugh about this in News Writing class :P

I think thats all for now
and have a great weekend, folks!

xx
Merak

mj is dead?

2009-06-29T07:45:00.000-07:00

Oh blog,aku rindu.Ive been busy with holidays.hehe.Spending time with mr boyf(like all the time) and also friends and family.The first week of holiday ive been spending it with friends in Penang.Memang seronok gila la wey,since this is my first trip with friends kan.We laugh and talk like non stop.So first day in penang basically we spend it in the car since we arrived late as me and amir had to attend wedding in kl.We went there with two cars.Here are some pictures during the trip.

sorry gambar senget,i tak reti rotate.hehe.ni muke2 orang yang gerak penang.but this time nak check out dah

this time is when we had our lunch kat subaidah,tak sesedap macam dekat PELITA!

BUKIT BENDERA,but we didnt go up there pun because the cable car was full=(

This one masa barbeque.The food was okay la.the chicken was really nice lah we masak but the daging ya roobbbi sumpah macam biscuit.The girls were very sexy la kan,then ada a group of people with janggut and kopiah macam tabligh came,we,girls lari because we thought they were people from JAIP!Kalau memang from JAIP,sah sah kena angkut masuk van sebab too sexxay.hahahhaa=p

For more picture,silalah pergi ke facebook ye?hehe.

Overall the trip was fun with fun crowd and good food,oh well penang kan memang known with all their good food.

THe second week pulak,I went to Redang with my family.THis tripp memang fun gilaaaa gilaaaaa.Beautiful chorals,fishes(i didnt know that ada fishes yang colour rainbow,seriouslyy lawa gila),beaches,bitches(hihii) and everythingg lah..Let the picture do the talking

nice kan the view?

the group of people,the best crowd ever=)

nemo aka clown fish.This shot was taken by pak mat,who helps us a lot during our trip.

mermaid caught in action=p hahahah.nah,kidding.

i look like a bird.fly birdie fly.

snorkling.ahhh,i miss thisssss!=(

i heart youuu guys.was taken by pak mat also.

hey sayang,i love you.be mine forever.

Kuming knows how to rollll..wwooot woot.background music *i know you want me,you know i want cha*

Ah,i just love this picture.hehe.

To express it in words,wouldnt be enough,all i can say that we had fun andso far,it is the best trip ever=).Next stop,insyaALLAH,abu dhabi=)

Oh ya,last Thursday,I had a reunion with some of my close sabian friends.It was gooodd to see them again.They are still as fun and crazy as before,that`s the best part eventhough some of them might be a bit different,maybe sebab dah matured kot?.God knows how much i miss them.Everyone was very excited and hyper,especially the girls=D.hahaha.sooo bising!Ahhh good times,like old time kan,gosssipp gossip and gosssipp lagi!

That night,i picked up all the girls except aida(as she was from shah alam kan),then we were only 10 minutes away from castle when Nazlan called me to say that his car broke down in front of zouk.So apa lagi kitaorg patah balik la to help him.Bila sampai-sampai je I ask him la ape rosak and all,then he said that the air cond is not working and ask me to check.I was like `haaaaa,gila ke apa,i dont know anything aboutttt engine kottt.Then he was like takpe lah cuba try on kan engine first then i pelik lah kan because the air cond was working and everything was fine.Then dia macam `eh dah okay laaaa tadi tak okayyy`.Rupa-rupanyaaaaaaa he prank`d ussss.Sebenarnya kereta dia tak rosak pun,saje ja mengada ngada*damn you* hahahha!Sampai ada this one guy tegur dia sebelum kitaorang sampai,that guy was like `hey adik kereta rosak ke,kenapa park kat tepi?` Then he answered `tak lah,tak rosak saja kenakan kawan2,kenapa,abg nak reverse kereta ke?` Then the guy cakap `takpe2 awak settlekan la kenakan kawan2 awak dulu.` Bolehh takk macamm tuu?takde kerja betul.hahaha!ngok tahu tak!

The girls*sorry tak reti rotate lagi*.love youu guys laaahhh!

Guys and girls*we just wanna have fun*

We plan to go for a trip.Any suggestion?

*Al fatihah to micheal jackson,he was a true legen,You will always be in our heart!*

Biasalah kalau ada assignment mesti rajin nak update

2009-06-22T09:53:00.000-07:00

Hallo,
Patutnya buat assignments skarang, but you know, biasalah perangai lama sudah kembali. so here i am, blogging instead of going thru journals and more journals. Bosan ohh.

So tadi kat college, nik offer diri untuk pick me up then balik kl sama2(thanks sayaaaang), tapi dia lambat, buat rambut(which turned out gojes gila ok!) so i went to cafe. jumpa farah and hairi. lepak with them and they said lamaaaaaaa gila tak nampak i kat college. which is very pelik la considering that i pegi classes smua. pelik pelik. so bila dah lama tak jumpa tu sebok la bercerita macam2, catching up things.

And the talks we had made me think.

Dunia ni memang pelik kan? And sometimes, menjengkelkan. Mcm dah lumrah alam pun depan baik, kat blakang .....(istighfar). Kat depan punya la loving couple. Blakang, dua2 pun menggatal. Sungguh tak faham. Then why be in a relationship then? When its full of hipocrisy and rasa menggatal towards org lain? Yang tak tahannya, dia appears sopan, baik, demure dpn org lain tapi sebenarnya gatal tak hengat la kan. Tolonglah jgn nak murah sgt sendel2 kat org everytime buat cite sedih. Bukan nak mengumpat, kalau tak dah sebut nama tapi. Cuma, entahlah. Geli. And i personally penah kena with this person. Tu pasal anti semacam kot?

Ohhhhhhhh, last 13th June, my darjah 6 punya class buat reunion. Its good to see these familiar faces eventho smua pun dah lain. But not everyone turned up, just half the class yg dtg. Lagi half, not in Malaysia, ada class, or ada hal lain yg tak dapat dikenalpasti. So here's the pics(oh mind you, semua gambar adalah candid kecuali group photo so kalau muka selebet ke, ampun maaf):

group photo 1; im not here. dah balik.

group photo 2

ni sumpah tak tipu candid!

yes, one of us actually married and have a baby girl.
not so baby da actually; alia.

ni pun candid haha.

pictures thanks to alif

Gambar sumpah smua lawa2, can we do that with normal cheap digicam? Cuz thats the only one i can afford right now T_T

Btw dah update blogroll. Kalau nak us link you up, do tell us kays.

Gotta sambung assignment,
Merak

Hate this sucky feeling.

2009-06-19T07:43:00.000-07:00

That red pic pretty much says everything.. It sucks when reality strikes and you're no longer dreaming. :'(

merak

Series of random stuff to blog about

2009-06-11T10:55:00.000-07:00

First thing to blog about
Sepet, i miss youuuu! and same goes to Ceplos aka Bio-nik aka nic, later we go bonding2 kayhhs?

I extend my stay in Terengganu so I still x meet my babies(read:new high heels) yet. Sabar sayang, later mommy balik, i'll make it up to you by wearing you girls 24-7, double muachs.

Second thing to blog about
Heres the pics masa my cousin tunang;

spot me!

my grandma is the one in green. shes 80++, believe it or not.

new member of the family :)

l-r; cousin yg dah bertunang, cousin yg blum bertunang, yours truly :)

Thanks for the pihak perempuan for welcoming us and the great food, sumpah makan tak control ayu haha. Semoga kekal kejinjang pelamin insyaAllah. ~~Boyfriend, kita bila lagi?~~ haha jkjk.

Next(i forgot what number ady and too lazy to scroll up wtf) thing to blog about

Tiba2 rindu ni;

and mengidam ni;

seronoknya kalau time cuaca panas ni dpt mkn ni nyumnyum

(scroll up, i dont want ppl to think im lazy like a pig)

4th stuff to blog about
Surprise surprise! I went out with my boyfriend yesterday and i wore tudung! No dont get me wrong. Saja2 je try smlm nak tgk okay tak kan. Ala im gonna pakai it soon jugak kan :)

what say you?

I do look different with tudung kan? I surprised everyone that day with the tudung. Haha.. The power of a tudung..
TO SEPET: AMARAN AWAL, jgn nak kutok okayhhhh.

merak

in need

2009-06-05T23:23:00.000-07:00

NAZIRAH JALIL DOESNT WANT TO FAIL.PRAY FOR ME PLEASEEE PEOPLEEE?AMIN?=)

so how long did i expect love to outweigh ignorance?

2009-06-05T08:10:00.000-07:00

(Title tade kena mengena)

Haha, okay, confession. For a few times I tried to write and use AKU but it sounds so pelik thus I have to press backspace again and again. So now lets start mcm biasa.

Okay.

Im now in Terengganu as my cousin's getting engaged this Sunday! Im so happpppy for him. Semoga cepat cepat kawen yaaaa :) Will blog about this later.

Cerita lain.

I've moved out from my Damansara house. I see no point of renting a house there when I only have class 3 days a week. I wont be there when I've no class so why pay for 31 days if I will only stay there for 12days a month? My mom said the rental money will proceed to my TABUNG DUIT BULANAN MERAK, so apalagi kan? Jalannnn...

And I dont mind travelling for 4 hours a day as I dont have anything to do pun. And yeah haha I'm not kidding when I say 4 hours. Thats how long it takes for me to go to damansara via bus and trains. But only for 2 days la. I'll be carpooling with Janna and Dhya every wednesday, same class. And PLEASE, dont go "EWW u naik bas?" on me, Ive heard enough haha. Yeah yeah, we all know youre filthy rich, tak pernah naik bas kann. Good for you lah.

So last weekend, Ive moved out. Then I went to the house again to see the house owner. I once had housemates from hell who buat rosak here and there and I had to face the consequences cuz the tenancy agreement was under my name. Then, kira punya kira, the cost untuk repair everything was a WHOPPING RM1700, deposit burnt, and I have to add a few hundreds more.

I used my own money to pay the house owner, and I lied to my mom by saying extra RM100 je. Okay, bukan sengaja nak tipu but I just dont want to worry her thats all.

Then yesterday, my worst fear has happened.

Kantoi with my mom. URGHHHH. Apparently the owner cant get thru my phone so she called my mom instead and spilt the beans. I was so afraid. But thank God she was totally okay with it. She felt sorry for me, ANDDDD she bought me this very GOJESHOTPRETTYTODIEFOR pair of heels, which has been in my to-buy list a tad too long, just to make me feel better! Thanks Ma I love you muahmuah. Tell me I'm lucky. ;)

Nanti I'll post a pic of my new babies tuuuu once I get my hands on her. Shes in KL right now.

Okay back to the story, Ive learnt a lot from what has happened to me. Yes, I gained so much from this first hand experience. And its not easy but I'm so thankful to have a family and a boyfriend yang always there for me. Im blessed.

Oh sebut pasal boyfriend, I'm missing Mr. Boyfriend soooo much. Hes in Bukit Merah for the family day so hes a bit busy. Sorry sebab I texting with that girl, Im just bored la babayhhh. I promise I'll be a doll and wont do that again *puppy eyes*

He told me tadi ada pertandingan menyanyi for budak2 kecik. So comel! Hehe. Im jealous. I pun nak tengok! And yeah, since dia adalah ketua geng budak(budak yang paling tua kat sana), dia pun kena masuk haha and he sang _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _! Haha. Matilah I kalau I reveal lagu tu but syg, YOU SOOOO HAVE TO SING IT INFRONT OF ME NANTI HAHAHAHA LOL ROFLMAO.

K ah.

Thats all for now. Nak tito daahhh.

Shabuyah,
Merak.

exam stress

2009-06-04T11:24:00.000-07:00

I know i know i should be stduying right now,but i just cant.My next paper is on tuesday next week.My brain is tired.My body is tired.Im sleepy but i cant sleep.Exam just now was hard.I was struggling in the exam hall.I was sweating even the hall was cold.Bloody F9.urgh.I just hope that i can get through,Insyallah.Im very worried about it.I want to clear all papers as soon as possible.Because i want to work.I want to buy a new car.I want to trade my bumble gray ~hikhik~ with swift or convertible car.But i dont have money.Why am i talking like small kid?I dont know.Maybe because im too stress.

I got a problem,the same problem as i stated above.I want to buy new car,a convertible one, but i dont have money.My dad doesnt want to buy me a new car for me.He wants me to be independant and pay for my own car by myself once i started working.I even think of saving my weekly allowance just to buy new car,to pay the monthly payment.My sisters and brother thought that i was joking and being silly,but im not,im serious.I really wanted to do that but i cant let my stomach starving without food,its tempting.Why am i talking like this again?I dont know.

The only thing that makes me happy right now is the Penang trip with him and some of his friends.I hope my dad let me go this time.Pls babah,i promise i`ll behave and be an angel.He said he will let me go,provided i introduce him to all my friends,some sort of interview like that lahh.haha.He even msged me to tell my friend to bring along their SPM results,passport and ic,ish macam nak mintak kerja je,padahal,nak pegi Penang je.Hahah.But he was just joking larr of courseee.

Then on 18th to 22nd im off to Redang with family and boyfriend.weeeee..Beautiful beaches and bitches,nice view,breathtaking view,i like=)

Random thoughts,
I think women are complicated.They dont know what they really want.They always wanted things to be their way,or is it only me??hurm.They always pick fight,find faults with their partner when they are boring,betul ke???

And let say gaduh,the girls will always say things like `okay lah takpe lah,jgn contact i lagi` and watsoever shit,then when the guys tak pujuk they`ll be like,`hey asal u tak pujuk i,u da tak sayang i ke?`

Second thing macam,let say the couple gaduh and the girls will off their phones and whatnots,but every few minutes they`ll check their handphone,and if the guys dont call or contact them for let say 1 week,then the girls will marah.And when the guys said sorry its not like they do not want to contact u but they couldnt get through you,the girls will definitely say `asal u tak cari i kat kawan i,kata sayang sangat.`Pastu bila the guys contact kawan2 diorang nanti their gf marah pulak cakap` asal u nk cari i kat kawan2 i.masalah kita handle sendiri la`.

Hahhaha,bongok kan perepmpuan ni sebenarnya,opss bukan bongok,complicated gila.Kesian kaum adam terutamanyaaaa AMIR FaHIM!heheh.sorrrryyy yaaa sayang ku,quote standard `ape2 pun i still sayang you,forever and always,i meannn itt sayang!

Boring lah,nak tido,okay lah bye!

sepet